I went to a suboxone problem trying to get off heroin. You have to come in withdrawal so I did (3 times...ASSHOLES! because the doctor wasn't "available")

So I finally make it to the doctor, feeling like total shit and he gives me a whole 8mg tab of that shit. Sit in a dark room for 30 minutes and he comes back, checks my pupils and says I need ANOTHER 8mg! So 16mg of suboxone, and I had already read up on this shit so I knew it'd be hell to come up no matter what they say. So he gives me my script , and of course it's too f'ing late to pick up the prescription (at the ONE pharmacy they delegated to let us pick it up at).

So about an hour later I start feeling....bad...like I'm going into withdrawals! Feeling like i want to jump out of my skin...yawning a TON...also took what was probably the biggest shit of my young life. That thing slid out like it was neverending! So I laid in bed fully clothed, feeling more terrible by the minute...my stomach started to kick in and the nausea was coming so i freaked out and ran to my dealer for some heroin. It took quite a bit since the sub was blocking my receptors but was enough to make me feel somewhat normal.

Of course I never went to pick up the prescription, that stuff didn't agree with me at all and I was totally drained of all energy the next day and feeling awful (and they expected me to attend a fucking sobriety meeting, before I could go pick up the script)

yea, so anyways I'm still on heroin and planning on kicking with the help of some kratom tea. I don't have access to much else. I have tried loperamide before but all it did was make me puke up that nasty bitter shit. I don't know how anyone can keep a handful of pills down when theyre in withdrawal. My first symptoms kicking in are the vomiting and nausea, and it lasts like 2 days, every hour almost to the hour. So i'm hoping the kratom tea is easier to keep down, even though even a drink of water (or even swallowing my own saliva!) will make me vomit until nothing but bile is coming up.

Ugh opiates were the biggest mistake of my life. I hope some day I can truly be free.