yes, it doesn't help to feed the despair. but if I know someone is empathizing with me, then it helps..and when someone is calm..they are feeling the exact opposite of what I am feeling..so how can they relate to me?

not that they feed my despair..or that they add to my spiral..but that they feel a bit of it so they understand me feeling the way i do. that's all..that would help.

but yeah..it does help to be told I am not alone. I know better, though.

it's just that the people in my life and experience that have done the most harm..have been the 'neutral/objective' so called people..but are in reality the worst monsters of them all.

I don't want my negativity to be fed into, no, but when there is no replacement emotion or feeling or reason to feel any other way and the only alternative is to be told to not feel at all and sometimes that's not even possible even if I would want it that way..

because I know feelings are so fucking MALIGNED.

but I think they are more important than they are given credit for.