necessity..

I turned my life upside down and while keeping a journal, I wouldn't even eat until I found food through improbability..

example:

one day during my travels I was forced to halt while I waited for an improbability to eat.. I sat in one spot and wrote in my journal for several hours until I could no longer justify staying there, then when I started walking again it was about 5 minutes when someone pulled over and picked me up.

they took me to their home and gave me work to do even though they had never ever done that before. when I asked why they were so willing they said they couldn't explain it, they just had this feeling that they were supposed to help me.

where did that feeling come from?

I could go on about that particular scenario because that was not the only strange thing that happened..

another example:

I follow symbols, and one week there seemed to be this recurring symbol.. deer tracks..

every time I followed them I found solutions that were so improbable that if I had ever found doubt before it was gone by the end of that week.