Everybody knows that the janitor is the cornerstone

I'm trying to avoid sugar, but I love lemon.
I drink coffee with a tiny bit of creamer - I'd drink it black if I could, but I'm not quite that ballsy lol.

What I used to do - to kind of wean myself onto water - is take a tiny tiny bit of juice , any kind of a juice, and then dilute the rest of it with water and ice.

I can handle that flavor much better, and it's helped me get used to the taste of water.

I'm in the center of it, it's not as bad as it would seem, but I don't think it's sunk in yet.

At the grocery, it looked like regular day.

I heard a few minutes of radio and it reminded me of the unity on the radio after 9/11, that's cool but I'll tune in a few weeks to get a sense and...

It seems I have lemon days... and I have coffee days...

Lemon water gives me a sort of clean consistent energy, healthier than coffee but... Problem is they don't mix well without 3 or 4 hours in between.

I can only imagine...well I did see on the news all those people lined up down the road to give blood...you know us people really aren't so bad, you think about those giant lines of people, so so many good people out there, but when you think about it, it just takes one looney psycho asswipe to literally shock an entire planet. And those lines and lines of good people can't make a dent in things the way that one piece of shit psycho can. Doesn't that stink?

A handful of years ago I came across a perspective that doesn't really assign judgement to things, I certainly feel them and go through the process, but perspectives, I don't know...

We are all beautiful people, we're all failures, we're all incompetent, we're all 'good', we're all great and we're all great fuckups, to varying degrees of course. It's just a spectrum of spectrums.

I sure hope I can find blood if I ever need it but the bloodbanks are shams too, I know some ex employees and have had some interesting conversations...

We all just need to do better individually and the collective will follow.

Morning. I dreamt I was cursed by somebody. I read the curse from a glp post. It said something referring to Hades and "I drop my burden and lay it upon you." It was strange.

brings to mind that mike shit from december...
how he was transferrin thr "yoke" to another.

Morning babe, you usually make catchier thread titles

Oh yeah good point! It did kind of seem like something like that.

Hi. Yeah I know. I thought about changing it to a better hook once or twice but in the end I just sort of decided it might be for the best if less people click.

Sounds like you've been having some strange dreams lately.

I've had a couple. One seemed to take place in ancient Egypt and I was in water up to my head in a room, seemed like a ritual with a priest of some sort. He gave me two snakes, they were intertwined and slightly different colors. I knew in my dream these snakes would come in/enter me somehow and would give me powers. I don't remember how the snakes merged with me. Then a bunch of other weird stuff happened that I don't really remember.

The last dream I had a week ago seemed to be of Ascension. In my dream I thought I was ascending. It was so scary it woke me right up out of a deep sleep.

Wow - thats sounds very much like a kundalini activation! Have you seen the staff of caduceus?

My dreams have been very strange yeah, I've found them triggering many of my day to day musings as well.

I haven't looked into that staff. But I know there's a health care symbol with same concept, two snakes wrapping around a pole or whatever.

Day to day musings?

Sometimes I wake up from a dream with some very salient ideas and emotions. And I really reflect on them and they lead me to sort of an engaging procrss of daydreaming. Active daydreaming I shall call it. Like they are leading me - my dreams that is.

I've been really inspired by Kingdom Hearts lately. I think the original game is such a masterpiece, and it was beloved by everybody I knew growing up, even the kids who didn't really play video games. I was thinking about why that was - what makes it so special. I could point to any number of things but I don't mean to ramble here.

My point being that something hit me. See I had been thinking about the fact that I rather suspect I will be an artist - and I will leave some kind of work behind me. I know my preferences though and I tend to like certain things or certain styles that just go completely over people's head. The best example of that I could give is Sucker Punch - I fucking love that movie for many reasons but the average viewer did not understand it at all. Well there are certain problems with it - the dance scenes specifically - but still I realized I'd probably end up making something like sucker punch that nobody understood because those kind of alice in wonderland mindfucks are just my preference and style.

But as I was thinking about Kingdom Hearts I realized I love it for the same exact reasons I loved Sucker Punch - it just so happens that while Sucket Punch is haphazard in certain places Kingdom Hearts is brilliantly executed and it's flaws have too many redeeming qualities to not love it for something. Of course what makes me love it is the story at its core but those who found the story convoluted and insensible loved it for its brilliant and addictive gameplay mechanics.

I don't mean to ramble - though I know I have - ot just occured to me it would be possible to make something like kingdom hearts for me, so maybe I don't have to resign myself yet to being eternally understand by a rather negligable few (though even one person's appreciation makes a work of art worthwhile, in my book).

The Boat Girl

By Nguyen Binh

Each time it came spring offered its earning
To a boat girl, her heart, and the river.
The girl thought once more how three springs before
A man spoke of one day returning.


But her beloved from spring long ago
Would never return to the river's edge.
Many springs were lost in its steady flow
Many times she wept at the broken pledge


After three years have passed spring came again
But time had brought her passion to an end
No need to wait for what seasons may bring
She gave up her dream of seeing that friend.


Farewell boat, farewell rowing, farewell tide
The boatgirl left as another man's bride,
But since her leaving the river that spring
Many longed for the face of their young guide.

*shrug*
thought sucker punch was awesome
kingdom hearts, last time i played that tripped me right the hell out....saw a hell of a lot there that I had missed previous times....
(insert its all a matter of perspective meme)

Yes same here, that's kind of why I am replaying it at the moment- I think I picked up on it, and was drawn to it - unconsciously - now that I'm replaying it I'm beginning to understand why it had such a powerful effect on me.

Sucker Punch is really a hit or miss - some people get it and some people don't. I think to get it you really need to be of a certain type.

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replayed most every game since things went fun...
question i found myself frwquently asking,
was that placed there
or
due to a difference in view, things are noticed that actully have no meaning, but one is interpreted.

random discription of the movie i found apt...
"Inception....woud be male mind...
logical, routed, point a to b
Sucker punch, female mind
more intuitive, feelings based etc"
paraphrased badly, but jisst tis there

saw enough there my head hurt for weeks

I had to stop watching Sucker Punch the other night as I was laying down for bed because it was making me cry a lot lol, it never had that effect on me when I first saw it but I've been through some different stuff now, so...

W

:s27hugs:
certinly can give me the urge to bite things
twistedly clever

Bite things huh :)
That's a new one I never heard before

I am replaying all the old kingdom hearts because I've been so inconsistent and it's been so long since they first came out. I'm on the 1st right now on Proud mode. I love the increased difficulty. It frustrates me and makes me look very carefully at the bosses and their attack patterns for openings. The structure of combat was so well executed. Even moreso in KH 2.

I posted the trailer for 2.8 on the first page of this thread. It looks reeeeally intruiging to me. As much as I want to punch square enix for not releasing KH 3 already. I am pretty psyched.

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lol, used that for long time now =)

last one i finished was birth by sleep, going from 2 to that sent me bonkers.

honestly, been ignoring any news on the gamin world since i stopped being able to play....dont need the dam tease -_-;.
Fallout 4 almost broke me

My store manager at gamestop practically implied if I don't take it upon myself to be an absolute gaming nerd he's never going to promote me lol. I'm like I guess I can deal with embracing my gaming nerdiness. That's not exactly homework.

......the ultimate excuse
"I MUST game....its for my future

I haven't played any video games in years. What system do you play kingdom of hearts on? Do you want to explain why you feel so connected to that game?

They rereleased nearly the whole series in two seperate "remastered" ps3 games, kingdom hearts final mix 1 and final mix 2. Yes I will explain why. Not this second because it'll take a bit. I'll preface it by saying its really an oddity of the gaming world because the creators of final fantasy worked side by side with disney to develop it. The stylistic combination is nothing short of fascinating.

Well - the story is pretty interesting. I was going to really tear it apart, but I should probably finish my new playthroughs before I do.

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Just be open to love, now that you know how it feels(or your dream gave you a clue) you can start to see the many ways love will present itself. Be open to love from unexpected places and unknown ways. I must remind myself of this too. It is very possible, as long as you exist in material chemical matrix. Follow after it when you feel it, even if you must shed grudges or transmute them.

the story is about a boy who is chosen by a special weapon called the keyblade. various worlds are being destroyed by encroaching darkness and are 'blinking out' of existence, like stars going dark. the keyblade is a weapon which chooses its master, who has the power to defeat an enemy called heartless, freeing the hearts trapped within the the darkness and releasing those hearts so they can return to their source.

the keyblade can unlock the heart of the core of the worlds, freeing them from the darkness that has overcome them. only those with pure hearts are capable of wielding the keyblade.

the story starts on 'destiny island' where sora and his two friends riku and kairi fantasize about setting sail into distant lands. to this ends they collect materials to create a raft which they plan to use to explore all the worlds that exist outside their tiny island.

at the heart of the island's biggest tree there is a secret tunnel that leads deep into the roots. it is here sora hears a voice calling out to him that the worlds will soon be connecting. there is a door inside the tunnel carved into the tree. the hooded figure that spoke to sora then disappears.

sora wakes up in the middle of the night to see that his island is being overtaken by darkness and he is drawn into the void after fighting a giant heartless with his newly acquired 'keyblade'. he hears the voice which tells him that destiny awaits him and the worlds have been connected. the door has been opened.

the trio - sora, riku, and kairi - are separated and the first game revolves around not only sora's mission from king mickey to free the worlds from the darkness but also his desire to be reunited with his best friends.

as sora travels the world he notices that princesses are being stolen by a dark group for an unknown purpose - he finds out eventually what that purpose is. the seven princesses are wanted for the power of their hearts, to complete what is cryptically referred to as 'Kingdom Hearts'.

when a person becomes a heartless, the empty shell they leave behind them is called a 'nobody'. the 'nobody' is the person's doppelganger, but it has no heart. sometimes, when very powerful or special people are turned into 'nobodies', they possess memories of who they once were - and are more than the lifeless husks or 'hollows' that most turn into.

A group of nobodies that go by the name of 'organization 13' are made up of such special 'nobodies'. the nobodies of organization thirteen have a goal, which is to complete 'Kingdom Hearts' - they hope that this will make them 'whole' and they will get hearts if they complete it. Thus they seek sora's power - the power of the keyblade wielder, because the keyblade wielder collects hearts every time he destroys a heartless.

at the end of kingdom hearts one sora in his search for riku ventures into a place called 'castle oblivion' where all his memories are fragmented and erased and he falls into a deep slumber. sora's nobody, named 'roxas' awakens with no memory of who he used to be with the ability to wield a keyblade. thus he is recruited by organization 13 who is well aware of his relationship to the comatose sora. namine is a girl who is responsible for piecing together sora's fragmented memories through roxas. she and ansem and riku are working against organization 13 to awaken sora because he is the only one who can save the worldS.

roxas is complicated though because the organization decides to experiment with creating an additional keyblade wielder. they clone roxas' abilities onto an empty shell - what they call a 'replica'. this replica begins with no face, but roxas begins to reflect his unconscious memories of the person he doesn't remember being onto this replica, who is known as 'xion'. the replica 'xion' takes the face of his old friend 'kairi'. But as time goes on xion becomes her own person, something that hadn't been anticipated. the same happens to roxas, they make friends and memories that are no longer exclusive to sora. they begin feeling emotions that people with no hearts should not have the ability to experience. this brings up some interesting questions.

namine's efforts to chain together sora's fragmented memories are complicated by the existence of xion, a nobody who is beginning to assimilate sora's memories - she tells riku and ansem (the origin of heartless, his out of control creation) that she cannot untangle xion's memories from sora's anymore - they have been interwoven together too much. in order for sora to wake up, the nobody xion has to be erased from existence. "I didn't know they'd fight so hard to become their own people", is what ansem says about roxas and xion.

xion eventually discovers the truth - that she is not even the shadow of a person, but really the failed experiment of the organization, a replica who has begun to integrate memories that aren't even hers. she meets sora's friend riku who confirms that she is a fragment of sora and he offers her the decision to leave the organization and 'go to sora' with him - but if she does this she will be erased from all existence, including everybody's memories.

as time goes on she begins to realize she is a mirror for roxas, sora's 'true' nobody, and she is sucking away all his powers because he's projecting all his unconscious memories of being sora onto her. eventually when people look at her they begin seeing sora's face. that's when she decides to go with riku 'back to sora' and obliterate herself from existence because she decides it's not fair for her to compromise sora's existence. she meets with namine and tells namine that 'eventually roxas will have to go back too, but he wouldn't understand yet'.

she fights roxas and forces him to defeat her, thus erasing her and she shatters into a bunch of memory fragments that presumably return to sora. her last request of roxas is to destroy the Kingdom Hearts they have been gathering for so long.

Then, kingdom hearts 2 begins as roxas, who has no memory of his membership in the organization and the game begins as him believing he is an ordinary child on summer break with some friends. as the game progresses he begins to learn there is something not quite right about his reality. in essence he doesn't belong there because he doesn't really exist.

and that's about the jist of all three games in kingdom hearts final mix 1.

that's like, a small slice of the story.

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It and many more follow all of us all the time. Learn to negate any harmful influences or occurances by transmuting your weaknesses into superpowers. For example, I recently became allergic to something. However, for this God traded a superpower of being totally immune to all poisonous plants like poison oak!