At J's house that one fateful night in December there was a message on his monitor screen. Nobody was home at that point. It asked me if I found the terms acceptable. This is something I am just vaguely beginning to recall. That whole period of 24 hours is very very blurry. I was just trying to focus on what I could remember, and that was one of the things I realized happened in that 12-hour gap of unaccounted for time.
It was a message on his monitor. It was asking me if I found the terms acceptable. This is such a fucking weird thing to remember. There was nobody else in his room, just me. And I had been wearing his headset. And while I was wearing it, I was having all these strange....I don't know if I trust myself to detail this part because....I don't completely remember...but that message on the monitor...asking me if I agreed....asking me to hit yes or no...I hit yes...I remember that I did....

He blames me, J. Does, for breaking his monitor as it apparently has never worked correctly since. But I didn't break it. I didn't do anything to it. Apparently it has electrical problems ever since that night/day.

There is a lot of stuff.... holy shit. What's the point in even talking about it? It's literally racing through my mind...sometimes I ... I just can't stop thinking about it... and I just want to sleep you know?