See, this is the Christian Contingency Response. Suck it up, BunBun. Swallow it down. Father will deal with it in His Sweet Time. You can eat it, BunBun, for breakfast, lunch and dinner. That resentment in your chest-if you were a good girl, you would just let it go.

This is an admonishment and a threat from a Christian straight out of the Bible.

I am being told that if I don't stop it, not only will God refuse to take the vengeance that I want, but He will take vengeance out on me. That's exactly what this kind of thing is saying. That I am not the one in danger of being destroyed by God, even though other men have sought to destroy me. Just because I dare to think about taking it out of their asses.

Christianity will mess up your head and tell you to do things that make you hurt really badly. God doesn't have any problem saddling us with that grief and hurt. We are just supposed to swallow it. Well, I can't swallow anymore. Too much has been done and I am really upset. Plus, the men aren't done with me and I am not really safe. It's not over yet. It's still going on, which I find completely unacceptable.

But, in Christianity, you are bound because if you don't forgive or if you seek vengeance yourself-you are condemned. Condemned. They will put you in hell fire for eternity and all of them will think that you deserved it, even though what happened to you didn't happen to them.