You think of Suicide? My dad killed himself when I was 7 - read this coward!

They leave this life, but, leave many Victims in this one....

Nicely sum up!

I've come close two times. Both times due to my belligerent angry and spiteful wife.


Once after my second Iraq tour I got to almost three blocks from my destination where I was going to off myself.

Second time was similar time frame, wife on my ass constantly angry and pissed off. Very horrible to deal with.

Some small voice in my head kept telling me to hang on so I did. I also saw an image in my mind of all the people who would have been affected that I hadn't even considered. I was so close.


Life is fucking hard. I just keep drinking water and taking 800mg of Ibuprofen.

Well at the least let me offer different perspective

What if his depression became the depression of his family? Depression is contagious. Someone depressive makes everyone around him depressive.

Or what if he beat you up because of his mood?

Things happen for a reason. Look at it from different angles

Why should people suffer? You were too young too understand what your father was going through, sometimes the suffering is too much. Im personally bipolar and I contemplate it but I was lucky with my financial situation otherwise I wouldnt be able to support myself and suicide would be a definite option

Nobody owes you a damn thing in this life. NOBODY. My dad didn't commit suicide, but he may as well have when he left my mother, sister and myself when I was only 2. I could actually contact him this minute if I wanted to, but I'm not. He's nothing but a low life sperm donor who couldn't face the reality of having and caring for kids.

I get what you're saying, but get over it. It's their life, not yours. And quit blaming anyone else for your problems... which is exactly what you're doing.

Sorry for the harshness of this post.

It is terrible to off yourself with a little kid or kids depending on you. This would mean that the man was absolutely desperate. Nobody wants to die. There had to be a pretty bad situation for him to do this.

It is selfish to just blame the dead. Others around him all played a part in it. Not to blame anyone for other's actions but we are all players on our loved ones' stages.
Pray for your dad and try to move on.

Leave her

Its pretty fucked up to off yourself when you have people dependent on you.

In my case I'm thinking about just ending it and frankly fuck what my family thinks. Its selfish of them to expect me to continue barely existing and just trudging through life. There really isnt any point to it all. Nothing brings me joy anymore.

I'm so sorry you had to endure that, and I can relate. My dad made that decision when I was 6 and left me and my mum struggling emotionally and financially for many years; we are still dealing with the pain. As a child it's hard to understand how a parent can choose death over you.
His father left him the same way, as did his father's father. Turns out a lot of the psychological conditions leading to suicidal tendencies are genetic and get passed on, which is what happened in my case. I've been struggling with severe depression, anxiety, and DID/MPD my entire life (I'm 29 now), and every time I even come close to that bad place I remember the hell my family and I went through before. It always brings me out of it. I'm just trying to break the cycle.

Yes, this is very true. In my life and even childhood, I experienced people I loved, they commited suicide. It is a very personal act and maybe they do not know our consequences in feelings for the rest of our life. It hurts so much, to deep, with any comprehension for their illusion of being alone or what so ever. WE were there, hoping and thinking on them, because we did laugh with them and talk with them and hoped for the rest of our life to keep with them together...NO, we children did not know, that there is death!
We thought, it will continue, our life, with them together.
We are not happy with their solution.
But maybe, the other side: they had to go away from us, because they did not find happiness, love, whatever they needed, maybe they were hurt in their childhood so deep, they did not understand, how to behave to show us, that they are real, maybe, in their world, they did feel like nobodies, they did think, it does not matter us, when NOBODY goes away, because for nobodies no one has interest, love, understanding.
In fact, we cannot know, what they did feel or think in their last seconds. I am sure, dying, they did understand, it was not ok, what they had done, but it was too late.
So, do not judge them, nobody knows, if there will come a moment of wishing, death would be the best solution.
Suicide is something very special of humans behavior, what a pitty!

Yes please break the cycle,be strong and live,the right choice!