No. My life for me, has more or less been governed by the "Law of Jonah and Elijah". In the sense, my life was never my own, and I get thrown into the furnace alot, metaphorically speaking.

I was put through hardship to test others, handed over to Satan on a silver platter as a test to myself. Nothing I do in life, really matters.

Using similar mechanism's as you listed, just makes it easier for "whomever", to mess with me more, so I prefer to think without thinking.

"For it is better, if the will of God be so, that ye suffer for well doing, than for evil doing."

Has often been the story of my life...... Or rather, "no good deed goes unpunished".

It just mean's, in regards to your post, the god of this world(Satan), thinks your fairly alright.