I lost my Mama few years ago, and Daddy this past March. It is so hard to lose anyone, but to lose your Mama, regardless if you were close in person or not is so tough. Just please know this, she knew you loved her, and she loved you, take peace in knowing that! Take peace in Knowing she is in better place with no pain, no fear! Take peace in every good thing you remember about her. This will take years to heal from, but you will be stronger for having gone through it. We all have these crosses to carry, but we become stronger for it. I said a prayer for you, that you will be ok through this. STAY POSITIVE!