Join the club!

Assuming nothing has change of substance of your OP's post, this looks and reads like as high a quality Big Dream.

I feel your pain on never having a date but I admire your 5 year rule.

You are a very strong dreamer. I can concur with almost all you have written. I will add only this, think more of your own abilities and all the information you receive, none of it is frivolous, it just might not make sense until the moment you need it or when it clicks, all that is required is time and paitence. This goes for all dreamers.

Finally, you did exactly what you were suppose to do with this dream, by the means available to you, you brought it to as wide an audience to reach the maximum amount of people you possible could, to ultimately save lives - the dream was not for you but for everyone, you are the medium of reception and further transmission and you have inhabited the role perfectly.

Good and great work.

I'm going to try tie this and maybe 2 other threads all going well to increase confidence in the signs.