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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 72595560  United States11/29/2017 10:24 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | |
1s3v3ns7ar  User ID: 12205049  Australia11/29/2017 10:27 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I'm unable to provide sympathy as I am incapable of comprehending death. I don't get death. I'm not afraid of it and not afraid to lose anyone to it. Fear is a control mechanism, fearing death just reduced the control you have. Last Edited by 1s3v3ns7ar on 11/29/2017 10:35 PM I'm stuck between ancient aliens creating our existence and simulation theory. |
| Deplorable Azila_Again (OP) User ID: 75557433 United States11/29/2017 10:29 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thank you all for your sweet and kind words. Quoting: Deplorable Azila_Again It's difficult, so fresh in my mind. Seeing him gasping, dying. I want it to go away. I've tried to sleep. It's at the forefront of my mind. Keeps replaying, over and over. Thank you for prayers. Many thanks. I don't have the answer to help with that, because time was the answer. No mistake, it's still there, but it's not on repeat at all...But I can say this, I journaled it. I journaled everything I could remember about the journey before and through the planning I did, and through the contacts Myself and my father had. In a book, with a pen. Somehow on paper it was out of my head and transposed, deflected. It wasn't stuck in one place. I put it somewhere. I have a journal of those two months so I would never forget the conversations and the interactions . Purged it into a book that had a beautiful phrase that fit, that would make me want to write. Prayers for you, once again. It comes in waves. Let it ride. The waves become father and farther apart until they are permanently on the horizon. What a sweet soul you have. Thank you for comforting me. I feel....I don't even know right now. I feel like I lost my right arm, my best friend. I don't know how to feel. It sucks. I'm lost. The real question is, do you even doodle Bro? |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 75864393  Canada11/29/2017 10:32 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I lost my mom 4 months ago, I know the devastating feeling. I still grieve to this day. Someone wrote this about losing someone close: The pain never goes away, we just get used to it. I don't know when I'll get used to it, it still feels like part of me is dead. Hang in there OP |
| Deplorable Azila_Again (OP) User ID: 75557433 United States11/29/2017 10:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I lost my mom 4 months ago, I know the devastating feeling. I still grieve to this day. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 75864393 Someone wrote this about losing someone close: The pain never goes away, we just get used to it. I don't know when I'll get used to it, it still feels like part of me is dead. Hang in there OP Thank you AC. I'm sorry you still hurt. I hope mine eases with time. It just hurts. The real question is, do you even doodle Bro? |
| Sassy Trumpette User ID: 70382294 United States11/29/2017 10:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thank you. It really goes to the soul. The pain, of loving someone and holding them as they gasp their last breath. It's just indescribable. Quoting: Deplorable Azila_Again Your loss is so painful and I am sorry for the pain you will suffer in missing the interactions, however.. He simply changed forms, from a spirit in a human body experience to a pure spirit experience. We mourn because we can't see them in the physical any longer,, keep your eyes peeled, I guarantee he will make some quirky contact with you. What ever he loved will be made very evident in a very evident way in the near future, a sign from the other side that all is well and a sign of their love for those on this side. This is the truth. I can still smell my Dad's cologne sometimes.. [link to qanonmap.github.io (secure)] Thread: q-list of abbreviations Thread: "DOT" Global Consciousness Project [link to www.godlikeproductions.com] “You can please some of the people all of the time, you can please all of the people some of the time, but you can’t please all of the people all of the time”.” Quoted by Lincoln-written by John Lydgate THIS world is not conclusion; A sequel stands beyond,Invisible, as music, But positive, as sound.-Emily Dickinson |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 75921368 United States11/29/2017 10:42 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I'm heartbroken. Quoting: Deplorable Azila_Again 6 years ago I took a job away from friends and family. I came several hours away from everyone and everything I'd ever known. I set up home in a new place not knowing a soul. I came for work. I just couldn't find anything where I was. This man worked at the new place. 25 years older than me. Immediately we became friends. We laughed, we drank, we ate together. He is married and welcomed me into his family. I spent many nights at his home with his wife. Spent every Father's Day with him. Not a holiday that passed did he not invite me over, knowing I'd be sitting home. He was my friend. My true friend. On Saturday he was put in ICU for organ failure. Yesterday his heart stopped. He had brain damage because of it. Today, his wife asked me to be there while they pulled the plug. What a heart wrenching thing to witness. My heart is in shambles. Please pray for Merrill (Chico) I loved that man and my heart is broken. Thank you GLP. I am so very sorry for everyone's pain. Rest In The Lord Today Your Friend Lives Sheltered In The Arms Of Father God.  |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 74837267 United States11/29/2017 10:42 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | OP, your friend sounds like a great guy and a true friend. Truely sorry for your loss. Couldnt' find the original version of this song on youtube, but here is the live version. [/youtube] [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 74837267 United States11/29/2017 10:42 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | OP, your friend sounds like a great guy and a true friend. Truely sorry for your loss. Couldnt' find the original version of this song on youtube, but here is the live version. [/youtube] [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
| Sassy Trumpette User ID: 70382294 United States11/29/2017 10:45 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thank you all for your sweet and kind words. Quoting: Deplorable Azila_Again It's difficult, so fresh in my mind. Seeing him gasping, dying. I want it to go away. I've tried to sleep. It's at the forefront of my mind. Keeps replaying, over and over. Thank you for prayers. Many thanks. You got to say goodbye. So many don't and it haunts them forever! Replay the good times in your mind,find a memory where he made you smile! [link to qanonmap.github.io (secure)] Thread: q-list of abbreviations Thread: "DOT" Global Consciousness Project [link to www.godlikeproductions.com] “You can please some of the people all of the time, you can please all of the people some of the time, but you can’t please all of the people all of the time”.” Quoted by Lincoln-written by John Lydgate THIS world is not conclusion; A sequel stands beyond,Invisible, as music, But positive, as sound.-Emily Dickinson |
| Deplorable Azila_Again (OP) User ID: 75557433 United States11/29/2017 10:49 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | OP, your friend sounds like a great guy and a true friend. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 74837267 Truely sorry for your loss. Couldnt' find the original version of this song on youtube, but here is the live version. [/youtube] [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] I listened, I cried. As I drove to the hospital, I heard Silent Night. As a drove home I heard Away in the manger. Christmas will not be the same now. The real question is, do you even doodle Bro? |
| Deplorable Azila_Again (OP) User ID: 75557433 United States11/29/2017 10:52 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thank you all for your sweet and kind words. Quoting: Deplorable Azila_Again It's difficult, so fresh in my mind. Seeing him gasping, dying. I want it to go away. I've tried to sleep. It's at the forefront of my mind. Keeps replaying, over and over. Thank you for prayers. Many thanks. You got to say goodbye. So many don't and it haunts them forever! Replay the good times in your mind,find a memory where he made you smile! He always made me smile. He was my crutch. I have to readjust. It won't be so easy. He was my best friend. My crutch. I won't sleep tonight. The real question is, do you even doodle Bro? |
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 75878521 United States11/29/2017 10:55 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I'm unable to provide sympathy as I am incapable of comprehending death. Quoting: 1s3v3ns7ar I don't get death. I'm not afraid of it and not afraid to lose anyone to it. Fear is a control mechanism, fearing death just reduced the control you have. "The last enemy that shall be destroyed is death." 1st Corinthians 15:26 |
| IvyLittlevine User ID: 1148772 United States11/29/2017 11:01 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | How very sad. So very sorry for everyone's loss. Heartbreaking is an understatement. Last Edited by IvyLittlevine on 11/29/2017 11:02 PM Ivy Littlevine |
| Buzzcheeze User ID: 8680923 United States11/29/2017 11:02 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | He is finally Going Home my friend. "TRUMP WON" "I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by" 'My ego is smaller than yours Why is abbreviation such a long word “When seconds MATTER, cops are only minutes away "Cut out a man's tongue and you dont prove him a liar. It just proves you fear what he has to say" |
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| Loup Garou User ID: 75421108 United States11/29/2017 11:22 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thank you. It really goes to the soul. The pain, of loving someone and holding them as they gasp their last breath. It's just indescribable. Quoting: Deplorable Azila_Again Your loss is so painful and I am sorry for the pain you will suffer in missing the interactions, however.. He simply changed forms, from a spirit in a human body experience to a pure spirit experience. We mourn because we can't see them in the physical any longer,, keep your eyes peeled, I guarantee he will make some quirky contact with you. What ever he loved will be made very evident in a very evident way in the near future, a sign from the other side that all is well and a sign of their love for those on this side. This is the truth. I can still smell my Dad's cologne sometimes.. My Mom passed in 1994, she still visits occasionally, she however opens the front door, a heavy door with deep and well fitting hasps and locks. LOL As you say, I smell her perfume when this happens. They are ever present. Just because YOU don’t believe in the Rougarou; or the Loup Garou, don’t make you safe; No ! The Constitution is a blend of 'moral certitude' -- which is one of the reasons that criminals are determined to be rid of it and We the People must be even more determined to defend it. "If there must be trouble, let it be in my day, that my child may have peace." - Thomas Paine The only thing the Illuminati fears is an independent person who can live, eat, sleep, stay warm and defend themselves separate from Federal help. Pray that the Lord gives us more time! The End is near and time is short! A fool takes no pleasure in understanding, but only in expressing his opinion. ~Proverbs 18:2 For those who understand, no explanation is needed. For those who do not understand, no explanation is possible "A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle" - James Keller Checkd, Keked, and Rekt! #Kids2 |
| Beetlepumprr User ID: 75910217 United States11/29/2017 11:40 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Human emotion. It is so intense, so deep. Almost impossible at times Quoting: Beetlepumprr He was a good soul. We need not excuse the older, the wiser, the kinder from ourselves. There is much growth and learning, so much love. Where does this take us? Cycles. We hope that we leave some mark, some difference. To fulfill some calling. To resist,resent and regret are like sin. It will rot you. All you can do is feel, look back, ponder and pass on what you have learned. Hopefully you will find one that is twenty five years younger and has a good mindset to conceive it. That was eloquent. I would say just be the best person you can be, and the rest will take care of itself! To those whom have deep feelings that go past thought, feelings that erupt inside you physically, those are the ones who will write the future. They cause ones to reflect on generosity and that divides in all areas of life. Be generous, generous. I am at an area of right now similar, but different. I used to be one, like many to shield myself from heartache,death,love,obstruction,confrontation. But overtime I have grown to accept and hold those things closer. To feed and help one at death's door, to see my child's death in my arms in an uncontrollable solace. To see others reactions. In order to feel and understand. Through what I have noticed and been through, I can take and build upon. Neglecting all pride, to get at the root. The only way to reach out is to have been there before hand. I will pray for all of you and this one here as we have all noticed , has made an impact tonight. We have seen it. I see it. Good night. God night. When the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace. jimi Believe nothing you hear and only half of what you see. I'm just a product of insufficient modality. Humans of Earth! I have come in peace. You need not fear me. I mean you no harm. However, it may be important to know that most of you will not survive the next 24 hours. And those of you who do survive will be enslaved and experimented on. You should in no way take any of this personally — it's just business! |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 75908121  Ukraine11/29/2017 11:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Sorry for your loss,,, AND I DO KNOW what you feel,, spent 3 days and 2 nights watching my oldest son die about 3 months ago, then 2 weeks later, my friend and mentor of over 20 years at work died, lost another old friend this week,,, You just kinda go numb after a while, circle of life and all that shit I guess Quoting: beenthere 70752130 Parents shouldn’t go after their children, so sorry for your loss. That’s heartbreaking, bless you beenthere. |
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 71088974 United States11/29/2017 11:43 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I'm heartbroken. Quoting: Deplorable Azila_Again 6 years ago I took a job away from friends and family. I came several hours away from everyone and everything I'd ever known. I set up home in a new place not knowing a soul. I came for work. I just couldn't find anything where I was. This man worked at the new place. 25 years older than me. Immediately we became friends. We laughed, we drank, we ate together. He is married and welcomed me into his family. I spent many nights at his home with his wife. Spent every Father's Day with him. Not a holiday that passed did he not invite me over, knowing I'd be sitting home. He was my friend. My true friend. On Saturday he was put in ICU for organ failure. Yesterday his heart stopped. He had brain damage because of it. Today, his wife asked me to be there while they pulled the plug. What a heart wrenching thing to witness. My heart is in shambles. Please pray for Merrill (Chico) I loved that man and my heart is broken. Thank you GLP. That was a very beautiful of summary of your incredible friend, his kindness, and everyone's unfortunate loss. My heart and prayers go out to you all. |
| MarkinAZ User ID: 75492948 United States11/29/2017 11:48 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dear DA_A you have my empathy and sympathy. Take some comfort in the fact that it was not a long, drawn-out and painful passing as many seem to suffer these days. When it was time to go his wife made the decision and you were with her. I'm sure you'll grieve for a while. But always remember your friend with love and kindness. Show and give to others what he so generously gave to you. It will get better as the time rolls on. Helping and reaching out to others will ease your own pain and allows you a way to pay tribute to the man who taught you such a thing by his own dear example. Love goes out to you M |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 75908121 Ukraine11/29/2017 11:50 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I lost my mom 4 months ago, I know the devastating feeling. I still grieve to this day. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 75864393 Someone wrote this about losing someone close: The pain never goes away, we just get used to it. I don't know when I'll get used to it, it still feels like part of me is dead. Hang in there OP I know the feeling, just lost my best friend a few weeks ago, we were unbelievably close and cared for each other. Most of the time I’m numb now or just don’t care about much, depression has crept in... I lost someone very important about 7 years ago, life went on. It gets better but it’s never the same, I describe it as always being right there behind you, it never goes away, the loss... those we lose would want better for us though. |
| ArchimedesGirl User ID: 48478701 United States11/29/2017 11:57 PM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | You have my sympathy. It is not easy to be the one left standing in this place. But if he is all you say he was, he is to be envied now. Isa 57:1 The righteous perisheth, and no man layeth it to heart: and merciful men are taken away, none considering that the righteous is taken away from the evil to come. He shall enter into peace: they shall rest in their beds, each one walking in his uprightness. Prophetic dreams about a coming war and those who survive: Thread: "Communism for California" west coast riots from 2006 dream (update: streaming hive mind dream) How to Eject: Thread: Game Over - a Journey to Freedom (story complete) |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 74632481 United States11/29/2017 11:58 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Cycles of life and death are not natural. You're instincts are correct. We should not have to go through this. It's an insane asylum. I will not be incarnating into this 3D reality again if I can help it. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 75634374 I recently lost a dear friend also. I'll never forgive that. Everything you said. This is all WRONG. |
| Simple27 User ID: 75856824 United States11/30/2017 12:17 AM  Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Sorry you had to go through that, I understand though and it's important that you were there. I was with my maternal grandmother when she drew her last breath and my paternal grandfather when he drew his. It's comforting that they were with loved ones as they passed and I would love to have a friend like you at my side when I pass. I'm glad you were there for your friend. Quoting: Chad 74971200  ~*Ride the Wave*~ |
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| Simple27 User ID: 75856824 United States11/30/2017 12:26 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | You are indeed a lucky person! Quoting: SpiritT Sounds strange? Look at it in the following ways. First, you took a job far from your home, knowing not a soul, having no friends or family nearby. Your friend not only hired you, he welcomed you into the workplace AND his home. He was your boss, your mentor, your guide, AND your friend. Secondly, you were by his side as he left this world. Do you have any idea what a distinct honor and rare privilege it is to “walk” with another as they transition into the ethers. You were chosen — on so many levels — (his wife called you to be there, perhaps he had spoken to her that if anything ever happened to him he would want you there) and you gave him exactly what was needed for his next great adventure, because you loved him. You received his love in return. From my vantage point, you are more fulfilled emotionally, spiritually, mentally, and physically because of your friend. Extending my sincere sympathies to you at this time in recognition of the space you will have in your heart for a time. However, because of all he was to you, utilize every bit of what you learned from him to make this world a better place. That that be his legacy, designed by you. You are indeed a lucky person! God Bless You! ❤️ He actually worked under/for me. Had the most amazing spirit. But not to all. Lol, if he didn't like you he was the big "D". He and I connected on a family level. My father died when I was 12. He stepped in and acted as such immediately. Last week, a couple days ago, he said, " Ya know, I like you more than most my family". I told him then, I didn't think God makes mistakes. He puts us all in the lives where we're meant to be in, and he was meant to be in mine. Wish there was a way to find peace with this tonight. The image of him gasping for breath will haunt me. The big D you say, lol. That's tough to handle. Sorry you went through that. My Father in law was dying and we were present. Something caused both of us to leave the room, and when we did, he passed. That was a blessing. Sorry Big D.....lol. It's an awful thing to witness death, the soul slowly evaporate. I wish I hadn't seen it. They pulled the plug. I waited. He gasped for breath for almost 10 minutes. I cried. Then without breathing his heart continued to beat another 45 minutes. Slowing down with each beat. It's a catch 22. I loved him and wanted to be there, yet, it hurt to be there.  ~*Ride the Wave*~ |
| Yes I Did !! User ID: 28394400 United States11/30/2017 12:31 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | We usually all find out that there are NO real "happy endings" - I'm sorry that you lost your friend.  Last Edited by Yes I Did !! on 11/30/2017 12:32 AM "Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds. The mediocre mind is incapable of understanding the man who refuses to bow blindly to conventional prejudices and chooses instead to express his opinions courageously and honestly." Albert Einstein. |
