it feeds off your fear, i cant imagine how frightening it must be but you have to remember that it cant harm you not physicaly, remember that your fear feeds it and is what makes it come back, let go of your fear of it and know that you are stronger than it under gods light

be calm and still, however hard it seems.let go of the fear and know there is nothing to be afraid of, once you do it you will feel stronger than ever before, and you will KNOW it cant harm you

best of luck op, my heart goes out to you