I do not think he killed himself, not from that video there he was talking about doing something bad. I have not listen to his group, I hear him before. I just can not do some of the Q part about the children, except pray. Now, he seemed nervous though, unless he always pucks at his beard and rakes over it, he seemed very sorry for doing something dumb he said would cause others pain, or that he felt he had done a thing in a weak moment is more what it sounded as than meaning to do something evil as he said it. Yes, he could have cause a problem he did not mean to do, as in without thinking about the things that could happen. He seemed lucid and not totally depressed, just that he messed up bad, and there was going to be something bad that would happen to him.

He said no one was threatening him, well not at that moment anyway, or he would not have said that no don't come to help it could put you in danger and he did not want that to happen. Don't sound as suicidal to me.

He seem to think others would find out what he did and hate him. No, matter what he did which could be real bad, people should not say he was evil or the worse person around, no matter what, he did say he never hurt or did anything to a child, point one, that is the worse thing he could do, or turn his back on God, he may have slipped, he did not do that.

So, whatever happened, just know he was a man and mankind are not perfect, do walk in the light do not allow it to consume you. That his point.