There is a reason they keep this information hidden from the public, and not broadcasted for everyone to read and learn about. You have to do your research to get to this point, and brother,

"When you dance with the devil, the devil doesn't change, he changes you."

"He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster.

And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee."