I feel like I have alot of moments/ memories where I look back and felt like something was there directing me in the right way, or nudging me in the wrong way, but it was up to me to choose.

I can only describe it like this.... its like going down a road and you have seen a sign that said something and it did indeed seem important, but you are not sure why and most likely keep driving....or if like you are in a crowd and someone is standing out of frame with a sign hanging around them, and what is written on that sign pertains directly to you, but you blow it off after the brief moment you could have realized its significance ....

That is what the feeling is like for me, but it is hard to recognize at the time. And most often only in retrospect unfortunately. But if you ever do recognize one of these moments in real time and not in memory, its quite a shock cause its like you have pre knowledge on the decision you should or shouldn't make.

Hard to describe....