Kore, thanks for your thought provoking reply! An interesting analogy as I am literally stuck in the same place/room :) Would a change of physical location or re-arranging my room help? I know that you say that all is contained in my perspective, and have read some of your work on the the "key", but have trouble relating that to my own situation.

I know that searching for "cures" and treatments is probably a self defeating exercise, as I am focusing on the disease. Have tried many meditation and visualisation techniques to no avail. Is it best to just pretend that it doesn't exist and seek no treatment to try to manifest another perspective?

I have several creative passions that I pursue as much as I my energy allows so I definitely have many other things to focus on, and I was never one who needed illness for attention or distraction reasons. I do agree that it is like being stuck in a physical and mental room, trying to remember what my previous "normal" life was like.

Are there any exercises you would recommend...like the key, to bring the required health aspect into my physical world?