OP, perhaps it would be also true to say that you have grown through your own desire for pleasure, rather than to blame another who was misusing this energy?

Perhaps some day you will thank the people in your life who have given you such intensely wonderful lessons, to allow for your Soul to grow.

And perhaps you will continue to walk your path, and find the higher side to the feminine energies.

Hint: they don't use sexual energy to manipulate.