On an unrelated note, I decided the Peugeot oldtimer I materialized has to go.
It turned out to be a rustbucket, costing 1000s of euros to have it restored.
I did a beginners course in welding in order to try and do it myself but my motivation is below zero. Furthermore, the person offering me his help is increasingly not helping, and today has told me the car has to move out of his storage.
To make matters worse, I am quickly getting more and more in debt.
So I am selling it off to someone I know who has two of those cars as a parts car. For 10% of the money I have spent on it.
Quoting: tuuur By the way, do you realize the power of Chaol's question?
"Do you have one the color of the moon that can fit in your hand?"Where was the car before she asked the question?
Why do you think she worded the question is such a way?
Well, rationally I’d say it was sitting in a box or cupboard. Where I stored it after moving a few times.
I remember clearly being about 15 years old, putting it together on vacation in France and later painting it when I was back home. I remember wanting it to be beige because that was the color of the same car my parents had. I remember being disappointed because the paint dried very unevenly, with all kinds of dust being incorporated in the paint.
A few months back I repaired the back wheel that wasn’t attached well.
Let's say you have a dream about the car. This one is purple. Although the car is 'generated' as soon you as enter the dream it has a complete history, doesn't it? Perhaps it didn't exist 5 minutes ago but somehow when you look in the glove compartment there is a maintenance record where you see it had an oil change nearly two months ago.
What happens? You take the chaotic data of the dream world and break it down into information that makes sense. It wasn't there 'before' but suddenly evidence of it is there in every direction you look.
It's the logical narrative. Something just can't appear. It has to be relative to everything else in your perspective and find a place therein.
You have the same power. In fact, you're exercising it right now without realizing it.
Do you think it's possible that you have this amazing power and you don't realize it? How well are you aware of something even more obvious... the same power illustrated above every time you have a dream? If you forget that you have this power in the dream world even though you could probably think of a dozen times when you experienced this retroactive filling in of details, how easy would it be to forget this is what we do with perspective in the waking reality?
So yes, beautiful token, but what is the point of materializing a wreck, that cost me 2000 euros? The real car was black, so not even the color of the moon.
At this moment all I can think of is that that token is helping me to realize that not all hobbies are realistic or economically viable to pursue. I am pretty much done with oldtimer cars at this moment; and very sad and disappointed.
Quoting: tuuur Are you sure it's not more like 3x that amount when you add it all up?
If the amount is closer to €6.000 euros, was it not €2.000 before I asked you the question above? You mentioned €2.000 and you would know about how much you spent. It was your best answer. But what is your answer now?
If you "forgot" about an additional €4.000 (that you didn't spend in the distant past until I mentioned it a few moments ago) does it suddenly disappear from your account?
The same magic that changes a €2,000 into a €6.756 in the blink of an eye can change €100 in your account into €12.256.
How does it happen?
At this moment all I can think of is that that token is helping me to realize that not all hobbies are realistic or economically viable to pursue. I am pretty much done with oldtimer cars at this moment; and very sad and disappointed.
Quoting: tuuur If you painted it the color of the moon, you may have experienced a different result :)
Regardless, your desire was probably in the tokens rather than the actual thing.
Or, as someone might say, "I like the idea of mashed potatoes more than I like to eat them."
That would require 2 likings. One for one concept of mashed potatoes and one for the taste of mashed potatoes.
That is also why our symbols must be fresh, without meaning. If your symbol was something that all ready had meaning attached to it, it will not work.
Something to keep in mind.
But you are not done with it yet. There might be a pleasant surprise in store for you within the next 2 weeks. A little something from Chaol for your patience seashell.
