Thanks mate Yep I was kinda convinced summet would happen last night and been a bit downall day but I emailed my hubby and with the gods honest truth about him and he hasnt got back to me, hes in a right bloody hole but I cant go to him, hehs to come to us, if youve read my stuff, Ive only worked it out mysllef this last week, Im so bloody weak coz I can only drink tea, I cant swalow anything, Ive got an ulcer from years of worry about money, jobs, hubbys outragoues behaviour and too many painkillers but I wanna get better and I hes on his own and the two eldest dontknow what to do or say its a mess but thats how Ive worked it out. Shall I tell you about my dream ARK? :-)X