my experience in attempting to leave my locked room yesterday and go out into the dangerous outside world

another example how even if you try to hide in a room to avoid all the crap in the world and let things clear, how it's unescapable and it will come to you.

I walked to go buy a bag of chips at the store and this blonde school teacher woman who I know has already had sex with my neighbors calls me over.. "hey you, come here"

and even though I am trying to avoid women and trouble, like a dumbass dog I walk over to her porch and she asks me to sit down, so like a dumbass dog I sit down on her porch.

I'm also trying not to drink, so she starts pouring wine.. I say I have to go and she says "hey where ya goin? stay for a while!"

so I have a small glass of wine with her, which she keeps pouring and I drink the whole bottle with her.

then she invites me inside to "hang out" while she cleans.. and she goes in the room to put the short shorts on where her ass is all falling out and can see the crease of her butt cheeks. she starts sweeping and dusting around, bending over in front of me - she gets her bird out and it starts crawling all in her shirt as she's laughing - and then the bird used it's beak to pull the shirt down and she's showing me her full tit laughing.. "haha look what the bird is doing to me!"

at this point I start getting turned on like a dog and thinking bad thoughts..

then the neighbor who I know already fucked her comes and knocks on the door..

"hey I was going to invite you to dinner tonight.. it's the last night I..."

and then he sees me sitting on her couch playing guitar and she's all looking guilty making excuses for having me there.

he takes off all pissed off.

I say I'm going to leave and go to the store to get the chips, and she goes "hay wait I want to go with"

She said she would drive but we were blocked in by this other mexican neighbors' black tinted out BMW that is his prize possession in the world - we all share a driveway with our other neighbors and sometimes traffic gets backed up.

So I tell her I'm just going to take my car and then she says' "oh I'll go"..

Now at this point I am buzzed on the wine and all the weed and hash she smoked me out on and I'm more pacified - didn't really want to ride around with her. So as I'm backing up.. it's dark at this point and the mexican dude's BMW was right next to my car where I scuffed it with mine along the side of his door and left a big paint mark from the paint on my bumper that I used to touch up the scuffs from the last guy who owned it - an old japanese man who apparently rant into a few things because he was 100 years old.

Long story short.. even though there was no dent on the gay BMW, this turns into a huge crisis where everyone has to come out of their houses and almost turns into street brawl with the other neighbors.

I apologize to the guy a few times like a dumb cuck and try to make him feel better, but also was trying to be realistic and told him it was just some paint that will wipe right off - that I would wipe it off for him and buff it if he really wants.

He refused though and kept acting all fired up and pissed off. I told him to go ahead and punch me in the face then if he really wanted to, but to just stop being a bitch. At that point all the other neighbors were all surprised and the girl teacher who invited me over looked scared like I was crazy.. and it sorta just pacified the mexican dude. I just peeled out of there and went got my chips at that point and left them all there standing around still acting like a child had been run over because he had a scuff on his chatchie gang banger mobile..

So by the time I got back with the chips the mexican bro already had it all buffed out and everything is cool, and now the teacher lady this morning is giving me the fuck-me eyes like she's going to want to be sucking my dick later.

life is weird.