NO, no one knows the day or hour. NO one except the Father God Almighty

I was NOT given any time period, this last time, I only have disturbance in me, because come around the 3rd week of April, 11 years will be up again.

I do NOT know, I am NOT saying they will return, or that anything will happen......I do NOT know......I am just noting a pattern

I mean, I would just say that it is my own personal disturbance.......and so, I have been rechecking things, many things, to see if I have forgotten to say something, if there was anything else I should do.

The only thing I had today, was because I was getting very upset the other day about everything.....was the reminder to do the forgiveness prayers and to let it go, and give it to God.

I was told by a Grandmaster in 2010, that it was NOT safe to converse by telephone. So, alot will happen, but throughout every now and then I am sending letters, sometimes gifts, and no response.

I have tried multiple times to reach Steven, wrote him many things, but he does not acknowledge anything, it is just like he does not know me.

So, this is a man who I saw every week for years, and we talked of some things, and he telephoned frequently between our meetings....and then he was with me in spirit but it was as if his flesh had his memory wiped

In 2017, I had finally started to get myself well again, and was doing much better, but the attacks also started. So, I telephoned him.......and he acted like I was some stranger at first he was trying to place.....then he said "How did you get my number. This is very inappropriate you called me. I do not want any relationship with you"

And so, I said alot about things, he did not hang up, he just listened, and then I said, I don't know IM sorry, I guess there appears to be two Stevens, my Spirit Steven, and you Steven, Im very sorry.

But, this fucking mind fuck game continued......no sooner had I hung up, when I heard Steven's voice say "There is only one Steven, not two"

So..........I mean I have just been at my last nerve so many times with all of them and involving me in things I did not want to be involved in and are abomination to me.

It is like the 24/7 mind fuck that never ends. It is like being tortured to death with great cruelty.

I, mean, so I just feel there is nothing else I can do. There is NO need to telephone this man, like they said, because all they are is LIES, and he does not want me to.

I just dont know. Shoganai as the Japanese say Shoganai