So, Steven for years now, creates dreams to tell me and others things

And I realize now, why Steven has said that we drove many times through the mountains and to the sea and listened to songs, why we had had great sex, and many talks, and fun, and dancing all night, and things many will never do in their lives

I was with Steven many years ago as Lolita

But, I can see, that while Steven is fun and romantic, and I can not in Truth regret growing up so fast, he was all I had, they had murdered everyone, I learned a lot about survival from him, he was not the type of man to be loyal to one woman, it just did not seem to be in him

I can understand what he is saying, to not cling to him.

But, then given the the choice between the two options, and the ones that would come after, and no friendship, and heart to heart talks, and no real passion, and no fidelity either, and no laughter and fun, and not understood in anyway

Well then, I can see Steven that I am just better off a loner. But thank you, for letting me know the Truth. I can respect that, truly.

The sex was very good and I did have fun, and we were friends though the circumstances were not very good, however, I can NOT regret it, I escaped them and lived free for a long time and apologized to no one.