IT IS HAPPENING NOW THE ANGELS HAVE COME FORTH SEALING THE SERVANTS

I awoke and it was so quiet and peaceful I thought it was over and I started to try and think about what we did in 2008 and review things

and I heard someone say "its okay, take your time"

well, in March 2008, I would have to look at a calender to get the exact date and pull the police report to know for sure but the prison men came into our house after we had went to bed, I believe it was on a Tuesday night going into a Wednesday morning

They did horrible things and murdered both of us

Then we were both dead and I was above seeing Krystal and her life and all they had done to her and was still doing and it was horrific, and I went back to her as her daughter, and they would end up murdering both of us horribly again. Father would destroy that world completely in great fire.

Then we were both dead again somewhere, and Steve was there, and he said, to me, "what do you want" and I said the only thing Mother had given me "True love"

and he said to Krystal "what do you want" and she said "I want to come back with the strength of my Mother and fight through them all"

Then I awoke and I was on my bed with the covers pulled up on top of them naked, with my legs straddled wide open, face down, like they had left me, and I listened to see if I could hear them still in the house, then I got up and checked out the windows, then I ran crazy screaming for Krystal, remembering her awful screams of pain and her screaming for me to help her

She was alive in bed

I ran all around the house and out into the garage naked looking for my pink pajamas but they were gone and searching making sure no one was there

I went back to my room to get some clothes realizing I was naked and Krystal called for me, she said she had started her period and did not feel good, she would stay in bed for 3 days

I started walking back down the hall but all of a sudden, and I kept immaculant homes back then, the hallway had all kinds of bugs, I told her to hold on and I went and got the RAID and sprayed and sprayed them all until they were dead.

She started talking to me, and I turned to tell her to give me one more minute so that I could clean up the bugs first and I would be right there, and I turned back and NOTHING was there, nothing.

It then started with some voices saying they were the CIA and me looking around the house in vents for microphones and smoke detectors and looking for hidden cameras. We searched and searched and I continued trying to get lawyers to fight the prison and file for investigations to no avail.

Then, something started coming to me when I would sleep, and I would awake and it would be on me, having sex with me, and it would keep draining my life energy, so that I continued to get weaker and weaker and soon I was just in bed sleeping and sleeping.

I started cancelling my weekly appointments with Steven though we needed money, as I was just becoming so weak and confused

Finally, on April 17, Steven started calling me from the early morning demanding I show him a property several times, it took me all day to get myself together and get there

We arrived at the property and were standing outside the gates waiting for the other realtor to come and let us in, and I would often sometimes just say weird things to him, for unknown reason........and I said to him......."for all the hell you put me through, you should have been my husband"

The other realtor arrived, very pretty, dark haired woman, and Steven seemed interested, and so, I walked away from them and went outside to check the parking for zoning requirements, and he caught up to me, and that night he did not speed off like usual he lingered behind me as I drove back home and turned off to my street to go home.

I got home and told Krystal I needed to lay down, but I knew, it was over for me. I went to my room, and they were there above me, waiting. I said my last rites, and the Lord's prayers and forgiving them for all they had done, and I laid down to die.

But then I just yelled out "Jesus! If there is anything good about me at all please come quickly!"

I did not see him or hear him, but still I knew, and Steve entered through the East wall of my bedroom and I turned and said "Steve, I am so glad you are here. Come into me and do whatever it is you do" and I was on my last breath of life and then his spirit jumped into my body and it was like every cell of my body begin mixing with him, and his hands were on my head blocking out the ones above

Then, for 3 and half days we were alone and I was well, we were lovers and like a family and watched family movies and laughed and it was great.

On Monday, Romania would celebrate Saint Georges Day that year on April 21, and it was also a full moon, I wanted to go to the library and my friend Sylvia went with us, we were getting a lot of books and Krystal brought me a book she thought I would want, the Keys of Solomon the King, and I told her hmmmm...wonder what this is....okay. Spirit suddenly came over me, and Steven started making love to me right there in the library and I started feeling weak, so that I had to have Sylvia drive us home

I got home, and Krystal wanted me to play Nancy Drew with her but I told her I needed to lay down for a few minutes, and went to my room and took out the interesting book she had gotten me and started reading the Keys of Solomon, it was approximately 530pm

Suddenly, I was back in the Midst of the Earth, this time adorned in a long velvet purple dress, and this time I was in a great throne room with a Great King sitting on a large Throne Chair at the other end. I felt terrified.

So, I am wondering

Does me writing all this stuff considering I am still caught up under some kind of fake judgment thing with Babylon help any of you?

I mean I just want you all to make sure that you do those Ancient Egyptian prayers in case you get caught up because it will allow you to move out of Spiritual Egypt and through the realm

I want you to make sure you do that really good confession of King Solomon so they can not say you have not confessed to sins that maybe you have even done in a past life and don't know about, and also of course the Lord's prayer and be baptized

This way you will be faster and stronger than I was, and move quicker through it, I did not know these things initially and got slaughtered for awhile. I was amazed I could still take a shit after being sodomized so much by the reptilians.

In all things, I think it is a matter of perspective

Knowing what I know now, I do not consider the ones that left Mother and the Heaven of Heavens as Fallen Angels

You see, Lilith was being treated like shit by Adam, and she left, and she was the one being further subjected to punishment by God, and the Angels were being sent to her ordering to go back to an abusive prick husband who treated her like shit and did not love her, and she would not do it.

So, she was there alone, very sad, with no one, and crying and crying, and the male Angels were seeing this, and knew this was not right, and Adam was acting like a prick and an insecure male, and they sided with Lilith against God and choose to defend her.

That is what happened.

So, were the male Angels such bad holy beings to say "that is no way to treat a lady" and we don't care this is the right thing to do?

They left Heaven the same as Lilith did, and since the beginning of time, that is how Angels came to be with Humans, because Lilith found love with an Angel, that is the only Male love she had.

In Ancient Egypt though, it is documented that Kings or Pharoahs can also cross Worlds or be as you want to say Interdimensional beings, so don't be so quick to jump to conclusions.

Jesus knew the Truth about this matter, and that is why He gave all the so called Fallen Angels the chance to return in the 7th Throne to Heaven if they fought with Him. One thing you can say about Jesus is that He was always very good at looking at both sides and seeing the Truth of the matter and being fair.

All I know is Steve has shown me, or maybe it was for them above, a Large Star, and a Star means an Angel according to Jesus in Revelation.

You know when my Mom got married in West Virginia it was to a man she didn't love but her Mom forced her to marry and he was an abusive alcoholic who she said beat her everyday for 17 years until one day she put her 4 kids in a car and drove with nothing cross country to California

But, no one would help her, she was told, she had to make her marriage work, and that was her husband

Today, out here, the mentality is the same. It is nothing to see women with marks and black eyes, and the cops say all their calls are drugs and domestic violence. Meth is rampid out here and a lot of the women are either 400 pounds or look like 50 pounds on Meth.

When we first arrived here, I had a few run ins with not so pleasant shit men. This one group of white males thought they were going to bully me, and I told them to get the fuck off my property. The one said to me, and they were packing, "you are the kind of woman who needs her head blown off" and I looked him dead in the eyes and said "try me mother fucker and I will change you from a rooster to a hen in one shot"

They left.

Others just call me a fucking bitch when I refuse to fuck them for 20 dollars and come back at night, and we have had the tires sliced a few times.

20 dollars I have learned is the going rate it seems for all the women here. pretty sick shit. Got to love America's Great Bible Belt.

There is this one girl in my class who followed me out the other day she said because she had a feeling that she could talk to me

and so to make it short she is with a man who was responsible for her face all cut up a few weeks back and she is pregnant

but it was her fault, because she made him angry

I know from experience now, that one day, something weird can happen to a woman and they become severely confused and disorientated and lose all senses and cannot extricate themselves from a very violent situation for some reason

So I told her, that having a baby was very expensive, and she did not have much education or a job, and she was already under psychiatric care trying to work on some things, that maybe she should just to be safe see if it really was a one time thing, and make up a plan with a safe way of exit and just do something to make him angry and see if her got physical again

I told her that I did not see anything wrong with the age difference that I too had been with a man 20 years older than me, and he seemed like a very good man, and he ended up in jail for domestic violence and I had to leave my job and place of living and leave no forwarding information, as usual, to get away from him.

However, the Democrats have started this Shame motto now for women to get an abortion, and the way I see this one, is this is going to be another abused welfare baby who most likely will be another homeless child in foster care or on the streets one day. America now has the world's most homeless children.

I told her, I also got pregnant by that man who was 20 years older than me, and I went and got an abortion, because I already had a daughter to raise and I was not sure about him and I did not think I could afford to raise two children on my own. She said, I bet he was mad. I said, he was, but it was not his choice, it was mine, and I obviously made a good one.

I would NOT have terminated the pregnancy with Krystal, because that was an entirely different matter in itself, and I had Father to make the decision and the child was given although I really did not want to go through with the marriage to Robert, but I had to, and just wait for time.

Oh, excuse me, I get confused sometimes with the realms being inverted

On the Earth flesh realm, it is the Republicans in America that are promoting abused welfare babies and more homeless children, like we don't already have enough.

Maybe the Republicans should start spending all the money on cleaning up the ghettos, housing all the homeless, feeding the poor and low income, instead of cutting all these programs in stead of worrying about walls and jobs, when these single Moms can't possibly work 2 and 3 minimum wage jobs and take care of all their 2 and 3 different baby daddy children.

Re: [Eye of Horus Satanic/Lucifer symbol for the ever watching, all seeing Reptilians

RA became the Lord in the Midst of the Earth, also known as Jehovah who Moses lead God's people down to the Lord in the Midst of the Earth in Exodus and who David went down to see in the Midst of the Earth, and where the Queen of the South, David's side, comes from.

The Eye of Horus, Horus being the immaculant child, there are two Horus'. Is also the Eye of Jesus. When he was crucified in Spiritual Egypt above, Revelation 11:8 they also took one of his eyes, separating him from his love as well, the moon, it is said.

This is how Babylon aka our slaughterhouse Spiritual Egypt, revelation 17 and 18, got their all seeing eye.

The realms are inverted, so therefore the Je*s called Jesus the Devil and with Devils and they called His Father God Satan, as they do in Babylon. When we look up, it is the same for us, we call them Satan and Devils.

All of this slaughter of mankind could have been avoided if the Je*s would have stayed out of Babylon like they were told repeatedly in the Old Testament to do by God and therefore that is how the REAL Je*s became the most cursed people on Earth because only the Tribe of Judah remained loyal to God.

The others that claim now to be Je*s are really phoenicians and canaanites and even if you google it, you will see that they list BAAL as one of their names of God, which is the name of a demon in Babylon Above, who they would not stop worshipping in the Old Testament and still like Molech who demanded Human Sacrifice in order to steal others money and things to give to them. Jesus certainly in himself sums it up in Mathew 23.

I am sure my Karma will love me again for another Truthful post. People just love Truth.

But, I have to go back and read again, I am sure there is a Woman with Moses who is going crazy and doing all kinds of things, that Moses calls Israel and they do not mention it here.

Is Israel a Nation or a Person?

Most Bible believers can tell you Israel is both the name of a person and a nation. But most people don’t realize that the term ‘Israel’ refers to different entities in the Bible!

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YOU SEE YOU REALLY NEED TO KNOW WHO GOD IS TALKING ABOUT, BECAUSE YOU MAY BE DISILLUSIONED IF IRAN DOES BOMB ISRAEL WITH ALL THE PHOENICIANS AND CANAANITES OVER THERE. GOD MAY NOT HAVE BEEN REFERRING TO THE PHYSICAL GEOGRAPHICAL PLACE CALLED ISRAEL IN SOME SCRIPTURES.

Well, I am just saying I think everyone should always be prepared to die and stand judgment now

I don't think people should be going around acting like they can take something for granted and are holier than thou and do whatever they want or some kind of chosen ones.

Works are works in all forms and they count.

Like I told my Mom, I feel good caring for the sick now in the worst of prisons, these rich nursing homes, because it was something that I had not done for God. I just can not believe that this is what the rich do to their loved ones.

How much better is the old poor grandma who can drink a beer in the sunshine on her rocking chair on a summer day and laugh at the children and animals playing.

Although they had hid me from Father and left me without protection to abuse and slaughter me

It did not work because someone found me, and went to the other side where they had hidden me

On November 8, 1986 exactly one year after JR was murdered I awoke and I had a dream they say unlike anything....I will tell you all about it later......but anyhow JR warned me about the realm above......not realizing they had already come upon me......and at the end when it was time for him to go.......he showed me Steve and told me they called him the Devil but he was okay, it was okay

JR would never lie to me

I forgot about Steve for a long time, and I wept for JR, in fact his death affected me so bad that I was in like a state of coma that first year, and I grieved severely for 12 years. It was not until I realized I had turned 27, that number that they said that I told JR that I could not do this anymore, sitting at his grave weeping, that I must go on.

It took me some time after I had met Steve, I cannot say when, maybe even years later, when I realize he was the man JR had shown me, but when I first saw Steven that day in January 2005 my reaction was to burst into uncontrollably crying there in his office for unknown reason.

I did NOT go down to the Midst of the Earth to get pregnant with Krystal, I asked the one that was with me, and he decided and gave me the baby. In fact I would begin to wonder what had happened to the REAL Heaven in 2005 and God and begin searching many religious and spiritual texts when the Angels would return in April 2006 and I would finally know.

Therefore, the one that was there with me, I thought of as God Himself or Jesus for all those years, but at times I felt we were distant and something kept separating us since 1985. I spent many nights staring out the window crying in solitude as others slept, I felt so much pain inside about so much.

Krystal never said anything about it. Until that day we were losing our home and she found me at my window for the last time and she said to me......Mom what were you always sitting at this window looking for?

And for some reason.......out of my mouth I said....A Horse

I don't know why I even said that, or why I was crying so much searching the skies all night

She snapped a picture out the window, years later we looked at it, and there staring at us was a Horse

Anyhow I have alot of good books here to read on Islam, Hindu, Buddhism, and Sikkhism, and many books on depth studies on the Bible and Jewish teachings and more

However, the other students have already been studying for months for the TEAS test and have already taken it a couple of times and they tell me it is very hard.

I guess this week I will get the recommended book from the college but I will probably not start studying until December as I feel it is most important to apply myself right now to learning all the correct steps that the State wants done for the Nursing process so that I ensure the best patient care and prevention of spread of infection.

I guess others can focus on multiple things and do well, but I find I do better if I give my attention and care to applying myself to one matter at a time and right now I need to make sure I do all these skills as the Board of Nursing and State has recommended so that I use their already attained wisdom and do my job correctly.

Then, I will think about the next step.

But, for now, I have already agreed to this rehabilitation plan and so I am also following that, and so I need to do this and also continue looking for a vehicle because I should be approved for work by January.

I've seen there has been quite a few more shootings and on the news now is the Oklahoma incident. It is just so many, it just becomes ordinary news I guess and you just become immune to it.

I mean all these people on drugs, and mentally deranged, and criminals walking around carrying guns, it is a wonder we havn't started just doing that movie the Purge, but really in a way we already are. They just wake up and decide to go out shooting people one day.

But, you know, mankind always finds a way. If it wasn't guns, it would be knives, and if not knives they would be burning down houses and hanging and quartering people, or crucifying them or burning them in iron chairs and letting wild animals tear them to pieces for entertainment, oh and let us not forget gas chambers. Mankind always finds a way to murder for entertainment and amusement.

I, myself, feel it does no good to murder someone who is innocent because all it does is enrage their soul and the soul always does come back.

Every dead person that has visited me has been a murder victim wanting Justice.

I mean they can kill the flesh but not the soul, only My Father can destroy both the flesh and soul in hell.

Have you ever seen that movie the Grudge? Yeah, Japanese people are very superstitious about people being murdered. They have many buildings in Japan that are vacant and no one will go into because someone was murdered there.

I have to ask Krystal the whole details again, but yeah, they are very freaked out about the dead, if that person was murdered, and will not go anywhere near the building, they say the spirit will come back with a vengeance.

Warning to Escape Babylon’s Judgment

4 Then I heard another voice from heaven say:

“‘Come out of her, my people,’
so that you will not share in her sins,
so that you will not receive any of her plagues;

5 for her sins are piled up to heaven,
and God has remembered her crimes.

6 Give back to her as she has given;
pay her back double for what she has done.

Pour her a double portion from her own cup.

7 Give her as much torment and grief
as the glory and luxury she gave herself.

In her heart she boasts,
‘I sit enthroned as queen.
I am not a widow;
I will never mourn.’
8 Therefore in one day her plagues will overtake her:
death, mourning and famine.
She will be consumed by fire,
for mighty is the Lord God who judges her.

Yep you better pour me a Double Portion FROM MY OWN CUP,

NOT SOMEONE ELSES

AS THE WORD OF GOD SAYS

All these sins are just piled up

Re: I lost my belly fat by intermittent fisting

Ouch that has got to hurt

I was horrified when I met my 2nd husband they were laughing over a porn video of the black famous Jane Kennedy getting fisted and loving it

WOW, just WOW

I don't know about some of you, the normal well endowed penis was always enough for me back when I was sexually active

I am sure just the real thing would hurt like hell after all these years

Well, good for you OP if the fisting was what you needed for your flat stomach........but I will pass. LOL

Has it dried up?
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LOL of course not, just well, it is a complicated matter, but no fornication will be happening here

so I heard this song today that I have heard since a child but never really paid attention to it

but today, it just hit my soul so hard

so I sat and read all the words carefully and listened to it a few times and I understood why it hit me so hard

these ones definitely knew of Babylon and the Heaven in the Midst of the Earth, most likely Monarch experiments too

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yes, so that Led Zeppelin song just really touched my soul today

Stevie Nicks I have loved since I was 5 and learned my first Stevie Nicks song, "Dreams" I often felt when I heard some of her songs that she had sung my life, I related so deeply to them

"Gypsy" was a song, that meant a lot to me after JR's death, and every time I would hear it, I just began to cry and sing

But anyhow, thinking of that song Kashmir, I am reminded that Mother and those Angels are the Gentle Race, and that Lucifer Jesus one, as there are Two Jesus', must have had a disagreement with Father in the Midst of the Earth, as it talks in the Book of the Dead of I think a high chief that turns on RA and I am not sure if this is also the same as Apep the Serpent.

However, everyone can change. I, personally, have NOT witnessed Lucifer do any Evil himself. He has NEVER disrespected me, though I feel that he does test people to see what they are made of and how worthy they are. But, you can ask for help if you are confused, or you can repent if you make a mistake. You don't have to be perfect.

If you are good, he considers you worthy and will not harm you.

But I think this all does go back to the Lilith thing, and all I can say is that Father understands that Adam has issues.

Father does NOT have a problem with a woman being strong or being on top for sex.

Adam was intimidated by Lilith and she made him insecure so therefore he was abusive towards her.

Adam then blamed Eve for any and everything and was not accountable for himself in anyway, it was all the woman's fault for everything.

I sure hope the animals had sense enough to stay away from Adam.

Adam just really had hidden female hate issues, or really not so hidden. Adam may have been the first homosexual male or secret homosexual the way he felt women were so less and should be treated so disrespectfully, like we see in some cultures and religions today.

Father God does NOT treat women in such a horrible manner. I am very loved.

Well, I guess one more time I have to watch what comes out of my mouth that I think is just a joke

I think it was 2010, and I was just getting slaughtered and attacked on this realm and above, and I am trying to protect my child, and everyone has abandoned me and left us for dead

And I told Father, you know Father, I think I would have an easier time repenting Lucifer Himself to Heaven then these ones.

love love love does not work, it brings disasterous results and out of control children

and all wrath does not work

they must be balanced

So I tell them, you can do this two ways

The easy way, do it Father's way, and stop your abominations and stay out of Babylon and put on some clothes and stop fucking everything and stealing and murdering and lying

Or, you can do it the Hard Way, and through Great Pain and Discipline and Wrath and Destruction of your little self made empires Father will still bring you to your knees and you will do it His way.

I, myself, do NOT like pain, so I prefer to do as I am told and submit myself in everyway to Father and He takes care of us. And I really love my pretty dress He made for me, I really love it, it is perfect, and He gave me a ring too. I feel so loved, and He helps me with so much and now I have Father to help me with decisions because I don't want to be making bad choices anymore.

But, to each their own.

However, your ideas up there that you are controlling something, are just your insanity and illusions, because you control NOTHING. Father controls everything. You are just a helpless player in a play who will act out the part based on how you behave and fulfill His prophecies.

Now, John mixed in Spirit with Magdalene like Osiris mixed with Isis and Steve mixed with me, and we became one

Jesus comes to John and is baptized with water but he then tells John if he can handle His baptism of the fire and that it is better to go ahead and suffer him now

Therefore, again, I am pointing out here, that John was dead before Christ's crucifixtion in Spiritual Egypt, as in Luke they left in maybe by mistake the Je*s say, it is John "come back" as Jesus

But, what is further on my mind, if you read different people who have studied John as I found this year, they knew what I have said for years, this is wrong, this is not right

Also, John could NOT have died by beheading if he was the Osiris, because Isis had protections on Osiris that his head would not be removed.

When Jesus is telling John about the baptism of the fire, that is Ancient Egypt, remember Isis is caught baptizing a baby in the fire? It is a spiritual thing, but it also meant that John went up to Babylon and was murdered there.


You see it is Jesus the Nazarene NOT Jesus of Nazareth. I think someone pointed out that Nazareth did not even exist at the time of Jesus' birth.

so the Je*w may have crucified John like Jesus, I am not sure at this time

I do know that they sought to murder John because they thought he was the Messiah first, and they have a track record of murdering anyone who God sends, Jesus talks of this again in Mathew 23

Afer John is murdered they see Jesus healing everyone and they say he is the Messiah, and so are determined to murder him

Have you heard that the Je*s say God has NO right to say who their Messiah will be that they themselves are going to pick the Messiah for Earth. Well, when the Antichrist comes forth you know it's home will be Jerusalem with it's murdering like minded Antichrist children.

Anyhow.........another thing I wanted to point out to you, is that I do NOT think Isis protections on Osiris could have been broken because before they called Jesus the Word of God in the Ancient Egyptian Book of the Dead, Isis was Called the Word of God

It says

Isis was the Word, and the Word was Isis

And if Lucifer is the same as this Apep serpent then it is quite possible he was with Lilith and the others and he went over to the Garden of Eden

Maybe it was a joke between all of them

They most likely didn't think Eve was that dumb or that willing to quickly disobey RA

And he told her to eat the forbidden fruit and she qyickly did and then gave some to Adam and he willing ate it too

I mean, they may have been going to themselves, like oh shit.....what the fuck......we didn't mean for that to happen

They did what

But anyhow it is said that how Babylon came to exist is that when Lilith left Heaven she made a Holy City for herself and it was all fine until Adam and Eve got kicked out of Heaven and came and corrupted it

It is said that Lilith made a deal with RA seeing the Garden in disrepair to allow her to return and care for the Garden and in return she promised to return at the end of time and help destroy what she had created.

steven is mad at me about something

he has went away

okay be quiet until he is not mad anymore

okay Steve I am just going to play in the water

I have a little curl on my head that will not go down this morning so it reminded me of this song

IT IS TIME FOR TEA

you let me know when you are not mad at me anymore Steve

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a really weird thing just happened

I went to get some water at walmart and this man says to me

Hi Jenny

and I stop and I am looking at him wondering and trying to place him if I know him

And I say to him, do I know you

and he says, you look like Jenny who teaches Home Ec, at Forsyth Tech

And I say, huh, well, my name is Jenny, well, God Bless

and I go on to get my water

then I thought to myself

what

this grown man was taking sewing....huh

But geez, he had the most beautiful amazing eyes that I haven't seen in so long, they were so beautiful

anyhow, I did throw a temper tantrum because Steve got mad at me and went off, and I was really off today, and everyone was asking me if I was alright today

Then, I decided I will just have some wine, and be an independent lady, and do whatever I want, and in my mind I was just kind of throwing a temper tantrum about everything and Father got involved.........and I said to Father well Steve started it, he got mad at me for no reason and left me alone and so I was thinking I will do whatever I want now

But, now, I am going to go wash up and wash my hair, and take some medicine for my back, and go to bed and be quiet

yesterday went well though

at lunchtime I had a old lady who they said never ate
and I started rubbing her back and singing her little christmas songs and soon I had feed her all her food

another lady also was in pain so I was rubbing her back with my other hand and talking with her as well about fun children things and easing her pain

this is what old people need is magick, fun, simple good things and laughter.

they do NOT need old boring Hallmark channel, or harsh reality checks, they have lived a long life, they need to have kindness and magick and little children good and fun and dream nice sweet dreams of heaven and good and God

I was telling her that she should ask the nurses to rub her back everyday, and other things she can ask them for, she said she never knew they had these things there and wanted me to stay and take care of her. I told her I could not I was only a student. I told the nurse that she neeeded pain medicine and a back rub and the nurse said, she has never asked for that before, she is just taking advantage because you all are here.

I was very irritated but let it go. I offered to go it myself, but she said NO.

I have always had healing in my hands and they have always been sensitive to energies. Therefore I really like to lay hands on the ill because I feel Father sends his love and healing of His Great Holy Spirit through them and manifest His Divine Healing in the sick and relieves them.

I am happy with all the exercise I am getting my legs are flourishing and becoming vigorous and my stomach is becoming flatter, I liked my appearance in the mirror much better this morning.

Things have been going well I have just been too tired to type
I worked other wings and they had choices and tvs and cell phones and I was happy and they like the place a lot. I have liked this experience. I feel they have touched my heart and I will some of them that I have grown somewhat attached to.

In addition, it makes me feel different about rich people because I had a bad experience before with Jeff's family, and now I just feel a lot of love towards them

We were going yesterday to get a truck, there was one I really wanted a Dodge Durango that they had finally lowered the price on, but when I got off they had sold it that morning. At first I was down, but then I remembered I had asked Father again about it, because we had gotten at Dodge while we were out here and it was a total lemon and then I looked at the picture and realized it had the curled horns like that big black demon that tried to get me in April 2008 when I left heaven and tried to have sex with me.

So, I felt it was right and Father did not want us to have that vehicle and what is right will happen.

Father wanted me to start to study for my TEAS test as the others have been studying for months and already taken theirs a few times and said it is very hard. I am not sure though and very confused as to what program to apply to. Many have said to me now that I should apply to the RN program and this has made me confused and I just do not know. I am giving it to Father only HE knows and I do not want to try again and not be able to get into one, as they only take a few students each year.

This is interesting

I was looking this up because when I went to mass last and went to confession I was telling the priest about what had happened to me and I said I went to this horrible place and went through purgatory

[link to www.ibelieve.com (secure)]

I do believe in this, either you suffer now, or you suffer later, but either way, you pay your dues

Jesus said to John, it is better that I suffer you now

I tell Krystal, it is better for you, that we have went through such hard times and you have never complained. This child has been homeless with me several times, has cared for me near death and incapacitated, has ate peanut butter and jelly or tuna for months and never complained. I tell her it is better for you to have gone through these things.