I started with clearing some of my chakras

I find I am just still really confused about all of this and as to why this has all happened to me and my children

I find I have a lot of love for Steve all through me, I do not understand the depth of this love for this man or how it came to be so great in my soul, or how it is, it is confusing in itself

I do not understand so much, so I give it all to Father, only Father knows about all things, and only HE can make it all right. I will just hide with Krystal under His wings and let Him sort it all out. Then everything will be perfect.

I gave Bear a blanket and told him I would cover myself all up because I was not pretty enough for Steven and I do not want him to run away from me too, so I will hide, that way he will stay.