I could use some healing...

Ive come to a point where I don't know if "God" is a lie (as well as all religion for that matter) and it's all just a psych op to control the masses.... or what have you.

Anyhow.. my very first memory that stays with me constantly... is of "me".. (pre-physical existence, I assume).... slowly falling away from a warm/glowing/loving/everything "wholeness"... (assuming it's this "source" you're speaking of).. and as I float downwards from it, as if I was underwater, it just gets darker and darker as I continue to slip away....

...... Next memories I can still remember, were of me inside my mothers womb, consciousness fading in and out at random..

But long story, short.... That memory always seemed like something super important that I "was suppose to remember for a reason"... sort of thing.

So talk to me.... How can I get back to the source and heal completely?