You look familiar..you are a cute. Team blue. We reds are in need of your help. They try to get us to fight, for profit, but we are old friends. Soul brothers. I am non binary right now. I mean Im a dude and that's cool but I dont really identify as a dude and never have my whole life. That is what I am struggling with.
I was assigned the wrong gender at birth, I was born intersex.
I just cant tell what is right for me. Ive always wanted to be more girly cause thats who I knew I was. But I had a lot of depression and issues and dealing with that seemed insurmountable at the time. Is transgendrrism just some narciciststic symptom of individuality gone wrong?
Reguardless of it orgigins, be it genetic or environmental exposure to endocrine disrupting chemicals. Is it a satanic scam? I would feel a lot happier if I transitioned physically a little more. But am I betraying my higherself, who I know to be male. Would I be karmically messing with myself? Whats this all about? I know the symptoms to be brought about by circumstances out of my control, but I am not sure what to do anymore. I think if I transitioned, like I wanted to when I was 18, I would of had such a good life. But the man I was with said he would never talk to a freak like me again..and he was all I had so I stayed and continued to numb my feelings with substances and dangerous behavior.

I need help..Everything always goes bad. Its so bad. How do I even breathe...oh yeah benzos. I hate them. But I start shaking uncontrollably from fear if I dont take them when I remember what that group of thugs did to me.