Lovey, you sound "depressive" because you are allowing others to color your world.

They're in your head because you let them in there...we've all done this.

So, now you have a battle in your head between conflicting sources. There's you who wants harmony, and there is all else that wants conflict.

Who do you want being the captain of your ship?...because right now you're letting a bunch of pirates into your vessel.

Fucking stand up on that shit, and walk away.