MKPitbull, my heart hugs you. I am so sorry for your pain and misery. Please look up, for your redemption is near, as the Bible says.

Believe God will look after you,trust Him, talk to Him, tell Him how you feel, and ask His advice. I'm praying for you.

Hang with us - many of us are in the same situation as you. I am alone, and going through this by myself other than my dear friends on here and a few on youtube. Trust God, trust yourself, trust your friends here, and be positive. We can make it going forward if we take the right steps, do the wise things, and know where we are going when we leave this earth.

Big hugs for you