Yes, I'm doing swimmingly well...

I just yelled out my back door to my neighbor who was smoking a cig. We would always talk about needing to quit, and how hard it is to quit. He's the one who gave me the nicotine gum.

I told him that I was really going to have to quit now, because I had an heart attack Friday night and had a stent put in. He was shocked. He just kept saying WOW over and over again.

A bit after that he came knocking on my door, he telling me whatever I needed, that he's right here to help. To take me to the store if I felt too tired - I feel fine - or if god forbid, I have another problem like Friday night, to just knock on his door, and he will take care of calling 911 and anything else needed.

He is a nice man....he was hard to get to know, another walking distrustful human being, but I do think he's comfortable with me now.

I really am a very fortunate woman...

My boss, the one I've elevated to Archangel level - she's so awesome to me, always having my back - she freaking texted every single employee telling them I had had an heart attack, and to pray for me.

Lawdy, I didn't necessarily want her to do that, but her heart was indeed in the right place, so I can't even be mad about it. It is kinda embarrassing to have had an heart attack.

When I was being wheeled out of the hospital there of course stood one of my coworkers.... of course. He came up to me all sad and worried looking, telling me he was sorry. I told him I felt perfectly fine outside of being tired from the night from hell, and I asked him if he could give me a ride home, but he was going to Tulie, the opposite direction of my pad. I told him I'd just catch the bus, that it was okay, no problem. I was standing there waiting for the bus, and up he drove. He told me to get in the car, that he was taking me right home, that dispatch nor his client minded.

I mean, I could've called for an in-town cab to take me home, no charge, but it's the beginning of the month, and in-town drivers get run ragged because of people getting their SS and disability checks, and needing to go shopping. I didn't want to run them any more ragged. It really wouldn't of been a big deal to take the bus, but I was also happy to get home as fast as I could. I more than anything else just wanted very much to be in my space.

Again, I really am a very fortunate woman....to feel this much love thrown my way is over the top beautiful and is so very touching.

At least this gives me a Cry of Loveliness moment now, when so much else looks bleak enough to have me sitting her alone and sobbing the saddest of tears.

No matter how strong I am, all this bullshit in the world of people happening now makes me incredibly sad. It's, I think, not supposed to be like this. Some will say it's all in order, but I know what they don't know, and it's not. Humanity is and has been taken advantage of, to put it nicely. You don't even want me to put it in my crass terms, it's ugly...heh, plus the stress of "saying" it isn't what I need right now either.

I love all youse guyses, every single person here and there looking out for me right now....