Seems our paths begun on opposite sides. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 77670954
But the destination and the lessons are the same.
For example...He is teaching you the very same lessons He taught me...FAITH..or TRUST.
Except when He taught me I already had FAITH that he existed. What I lacked was FAITH that he IS ALWAYS THERE no matter what you see or feel.
With you...you have yet to meet Him. But you will..when He judges the time is right for you to meet.
Verything is worked out well in advance.
There will be no mistakes..at the end of your life you will look back and SEE the pattern of His Hand in your life.
As I look back over those "silent years" and realise he was there all along...working everything out for my good.
Thats what he does...he turns the bad situations to your favour...works them out for Good.
From a human stand point, over 10 years should be a sufficient amount of time, don't you think?
When I look back on all of the years that I could've brought Him great glory, and much good pleasure, instead of living a life devoid of producing good fruit...empty years...it makes me wonder why He chose me to born at all. It's criminal the amount of time that I've wasted...it really is. I do not have much time left.
However, I am reminded of a previous letter from you that (with God) nothing will be wasted. God hates waste. In God's way, and in His time, my time to shine for Him will come.
As of right now, I wish that I was never born at all.
You seem very, very, mature in your faith and belief in God!
That said, I can honestly say that I've never met any one like you before.
I can honestly say that every member of the clergy that I've talked to and the many, many people who claimed to know and love God were all as dead as door nails and I'm not kidding! It's crazy, man...it really is!
Does God talk to you in the traditional manner or some other way?
How often would you like us to talk with each other?
I'd like very much to pray for you tonight. What would you like me to pray for you about?