You say you don't have blinkers on, but you can't accept that other people don't see a deity when when they look at the wonders of the Universe. That's blinkers. Your own perspective has stopped you even trying to understand a different point of view. I see the same things you do, and marvel at the unwinding of the laws of Nature to create such complexity and abundance... but I see literally no reason to leap from that observation to a deity of any sort. Instead, I want to understand. To me, your way is a pointless denial of the wonder, by inventing an explanation that doesn't really explain anything.

The mere thought of God doesn't question my beliefs in the Universe and my place in it, because I don't have any fixed beliefs. I have ideas that I play with, and try to break in order to further my understanding, and come closer to the truth. The concept of a God making everything is one of the first ideas that was thrown at me, but I discarded that one as largely pointless many, many years ago. It's just not anything close to being the most compelling possibility, and I no longer give it any thought. I appreciate that God is central to your perception of yourself, but to me the concept is largely irrelevant. It's just not very interesting.

I'm not lying to myself, or to anyone else. It seems that you're simply unwilling to consider, or incapable of appreciating, such a different point of view... but that's your blinkers, not mine.