I totally get it, more than you know. It is a lonely existance. It is almost better not taking that colored pill, in retrospect of course. I wish I had better advice. I just find it interesting how you articulated it, very well as a matter of fact. What I found is that i alienated and scared a bunch of people away speaking my truth. I guess it weeded out the good from the bad, but until you find your tribe that supports you and the truth, your stories and such, it is darn lonely in the meantime. You may even run into hostility from people who don't want to believe, as if they are defending anti truth, hard to explain. Some things when revealed bring out the worst in a person not ready to deal with it, so they attack. That experience has made me just want to be a hermit and fade away.