Dealing with the psychological side of witnessing things not accepted by society as possible

I say this all the time, all the time. I also feel like most people are like a clock with the hands on 12 Noon, but me, I am 12:11 or something like that. Like a foot in another place if that renders any solace as explanation. While I do find myself sometimes lonely, alone most of the time, I am also aware that my space is void of a 3D human like me but it isn't empty, just silent.
Sonic senses heightened in these moments.

How long ago did this happen to you? Do you feel you have privacy or has that been compromised?

because then you might suffer the same fate as the others?

As you said this shit is bigger than you, then why do you feel it necessary to shoulder all of the burden of educating the masses by yourself?
I can only imagine what you have witnessed and wish people to know. I view it as a form of natural selection, those who are smart enough to question everything will find out the truth in all its beauty and horror. Those who aren't will rest in ignorance because they aren't bright enough to ask the right questions.

So, how do you deal with it when there will never be closure or acknowledgement?

Regardless of what it was.

Whether you saw a green alien or watched the CIA execute someone on US soil...

How do you deal with coming to terms with it knowing you'll never have society on your side? That they'd rather believe you're nuts than that it happened.

Has anyone worked through that crap and come out the other side?

Compartmentalization is the only possibility of surviving such, sanity intact.

So, how do you deal with it when there will never be closure or acknowledgement?

Regardless of what it was.

Whether you saw a green alien or watched the CIA execute someone on US soil...

How do you deal with coming to terms with it knowing you'll never have society on your side? That they'd rather believe you're nuts than that it happened.

Has anyone worked through that crap and come out the other side?

I'm glad I could have been there.

My journals... oh lord, my journals. I've tried, but I don't know how much good they've done.

One of my first ones as a teen, before I even had a framework or words from which to describe things, was stolen by a friend and ended up in the hands of a guy writing a book.
Thanks to that, I unwittingly ended up as one of the subjects of one of the original published conspiracy writings out there.
Before I even knew it was a fucking conspiracy.

I'm usually the last to know.

My last one, I left in a bin on the side of the road in a foreign country.
I found it in my luggage again 3 years later in another country.
I have no idea how it got there. Weird as hell.
Maybe I forgot to actually throw it in the bin?
I binned it (again).
Hopefully, this time it stays. It's not something anyone should be crossing borders with.

She tells me after I decompartmentalized...

There's no doubt that the education of the masses is depressing and probably worthless.

Sometimes I really do just need to get it off my chest. It just sits there lurking under the surface, always. After decades of keeping a perfectly serene exterior through all of that shit, it's just a relief to let the mask crack.

I still regret it when I'm done speaking, but eh, that's why I'm on here asking.

The One Who Dreams is here.

Are you asking how the real deals cope with their psychological issues after carrying out an order for the country, or asking what to do about what you saw?

If it's the former, there's no psychological issues.

Because for second example like you described above, they don't hire people to carry order like those, unless their candidates are well known narcissistic psychopaths with serious mental issues.

You don't want to be around people like them, even as your friends, because they'll never let you know what they're thinking inside.

If it's the latter, there are two possible scenarios.

1. You work for an alphabet agency and asking in this forum what to do.

- You're f###ed.
- Alphabet agencies can tell you who are, within 5 minutes, even if you're behind the multitude of proxy/VPN/remote desktops with scores of DNS leak proof protections.
- They can dig up up your monthly utility bill details within 10 minutes, if you have used the current device (PC or mobile phone) for anything personal in the past.
- Alphabet agencies don't have to go through website mods, because they can track enter and exit node time and dig up your data from ISPs from all around the world and track who ordered what at what time.
- Even if you're surfing from places where they provide free internet access, if your device was used in the past for something else, they can trace you.
- Once the system gets triggered, they automatically create maps of your associations and dig up data on whether you're a spook or not.
- If you are, they take you in for questioning.
- If you're not, you get on their spotlight.

2. You saw something disturbing and you're asking for help here with no association with alphabet agencies.

- You're f###ed.
- You're asking for trouble, because they're probably making a map of association on you right at this moment.

If doesn't matter whether you're an Eskimo living in igloo or a three eyed Martian.

If you grab their attention, then you can say goodbye to your privacy.

I noticed a lot of people were bad mouthing innocent visitors expressing their opinions, because bad mouthers were feeling safe as they were hiding behind the VPNs.

Be careful, because spooks pretend to be those innocent posters on purpose, to turn what they call 'bad people' into their prey.

So, how do you deal with it when there will never be closure or acknowledgement?

Regardless of what it was.

Whether you saw a green alien or watched the CIA execute someone on US soil...

How do you deal with coming to terms with it knowing you'll never have society on your side? That they'd rather believe you're nuts than that it happened.

Has anyone worked through that crap and come out the other side?

I journaled at one time. Tossed mine out in Wash DC at 6th and Penn, right in front of the JW Marriott. Probably ended up in a storm drain. My God, the shit that was in it ....


ETA: Contained nothing to identify me, except maybe some DNA. Whatever ....

So, how do you deal with it when there will never be closure or acknowledgement?

Regardless of what it was.

Whether you saw a green alien or watched the CIA execute someone on US soil...

How do you deal with coming to terms with it knowing you'll never have society on your side? That they'd rather believe you're nuts than that it happened.

Has anyone worked through that crap and come out the other side?

I journaled at one time. Tossed mine out in Wash DC at 6th and Penn, right in front of the JW Marriott. Probably ended up in a storm drain. My God, the shit that was in it ....


ETA: Contained nothing to identify me, except maybe some DNA. Whatever ....

While I didn't officially toss them out as a personal decision, I lost several of mine, dear to me in a fire late last year, and I do have to say I now wrack my brain wondering what the hell was in them now, very bizarre.

I was half hoping mine would at least make an interesting read for someone...after I had already exited the country and was nowhere near it.

I'm probably fairly identifiable, to some, anyway. When there are only three people in the room and one of them is writing about it, and they're talking shit about the other two, it probably becomes obvious.

I actually have someone elses writing that lived in a bush for a few days outside one of my relatives houses. Somehow I picked up a piece of paper one day because I saw some writing on it and was just curious, then saw the trail to where it came from and knew someone had been staying in the bush. Anyhow it made for an interesting read and I kept it thinking I would incorporate it into a piece of art one day. Congrats on your pin OP.

Why the need to get others to understand?
What does it matter, if what you say are accepted?
Find like minded. Start something.
It doesn't matter what other people think. There will always be for, and against.
Find out what you really want. If it's talking there Are plenty of people who have experienced.
Who cares if they don't believe you?

Hard to deal with the lack of accept from 3D? Who wants accept from them. Not me. I'm actually quite happy each time I see I'm out of the box, which they confirm. But I'm also long gone, in terms of seeing things, and not being 3D. You just simply stop care after a while. You find yourself and your own group.

For me, I think the issue is in being expected to cover up something that continues to do damage, especially when given the free range of secrecy in which to do so.

So, rather than being a one-time event, it's like watching a never-ending train wreck.

Ultimately you come to the know the truth. Then anything else is meaningless.