Every day I wake up, I thank God for another day while also going "ok Jesus, i'm ready to leave this insane world behind!"

Maybe this feeling of being totally jaded and over this fallen world is actually a blessing. We are blessed to be at a point where we have the bare minimum of attachments to this reality that is going away anyway. Can you imagine desperately trying to cling to this world and this temporary life with nothing but fear and despair for anything else???