Forget it!

So you want me to tell you what you want. That makes a whole lot of sense.

Tbh you have the demeanor of some dude. What are you a spook?

Ugh i was just getting ready to serenade my Love_Goddess before you came and ruined everything! Now i cannot think of something good to romanticize her with...

Try fucking her with your virtual dick.

I think someone is just mad because there is a real walking ticking tock clock. Scared? You should be buwhahaha.

Oh, that seems odd to me. He takes cares of you but, you are not together? Sounds complicated...you dont really have to comment.

Well, I hate to make my life an open book but, I guess at this point what the heck. Inner turmoil with a person I have happened to bonded with on a soul level. I wanted to know the truth of a lot of things which, I guess I am finding. Unfortunately a lot of what I am finding is difficult for me to let go. A lot of times I wonder what they even want of me tbh. Perhaps maybe they are not even conscious and, it is on an unconscious level. But a person deserves peace (me) and, I am just like do you want or need something? I suppose it is partly my fault for bonding on a soul level with them. So, I do not really know if they want to talk, be friends, troll me, ignore me, or a relationship? In the past I have tried relationship (though I guess my attempt was a big let down) and was shot down. I just find some of their actions very kind and sweet on one hand and then this whole other side that was unusally cruel. It is hard to reconcile. Im also irritated I had to figure out the whole truth over years and years by intuition when they could of easily told me. I am not sure why It is so difficult to just tell me the truth. I also wonder if this is part of my healing as ive only been sober just under 3 years. So, I do wonder if some things I did bury and did not want to think upon have also arose. Part of me cares for her so much its scary the other part of me hurts so bad Id light a billion dollars on fire just to whip her off and tell her to fuck her self to her face.

Oh heavens no, I have never been married with a ring and all that jasz. I really think that is kind of silly. I suppose more so I am annoyed the state is involved in the process. I also never been in that sort of relationship where it came to the point of even thinking about that. Im a loner, weird, humble, average looks, have had weight issues and have had considerable medical problems through a lot of my adult life until more recently. Ive always been the type of person with friends and otherwise that would happily keep themselves busy unless ow asked to do something. So, for a lot of reasons no. I just try to do the best I can each day to be better and hopefully there is something better at the end of the tunnel.

I hope you are feeling better.

Ugh i was just getting ready to serenade my Love_Goddess before you came and ruined everything! Now i cannot think of something good to romanticize her with...

Try fucking her with your virtual dick.

Oh

Hi..yeah..I'm feeling great! I managed to sleep properly and when I woke up..OMG..everything broken had been fixed, breakfast was made, all because of those two!

We are on-off together. Sometimes we drift apart for months. Latley we are together. You see, recently someone was really awful to me for no good reason. Someone who I had treated like gold just turned around out of the blue and was so hateful to me and now I'll never go back. I was so sad for a few days..but it did something good. It had the effect of making me think about stuff..and suddenly I was seeing my ex in a brand new light! Suddenly I could see him for the good person he truly was and I called him up. It took meeting someone really mean to make that happen. So yeah..every dark cloud has a silver lining!

Oh thats quite a read..very interesting.The way you describe yourself is what I had envisioned. What kind of medical problems? Maybe I could help you. You already know about fermented foods for rebalancing gut bacteria. What other ailments do you have?

Today is VERY doomy..yet I'm very indifferent, extremely desensitized.

How do I get the feeling back, OP?

Today is VERY doomy..yet I'm very indifferent, extremely desensitized.

How do I get the feeling back, OP?

You want to be intrigued by doom again?

Prior posts were the OP.

I never get a doom rush. I already know how it ends.

Fizzle out like always? Seems like youre just as desensitized!

Oh, what did this particular person do (awful person)? Well, if you were sad for a few days you probably never cared too much so, it is good you are going back with your ex. What did you do to treat them like gold?

Oh, my medical issues are for the most part under control thanks to family and people that were there for me when I needed them.

Well, love_goddess i guess it is time to part ways.

Wouldnt you agree?

Yep :) I think I've answered everything you asked me. If I havent, its cause I'm probably still a bit sleepy.

Was nice to talk to ya last few days. I hope I helped you. Now I can let you go :)

Yes with little detail but, what i come to expect.

You dont owe me anything. Good luck.

Thx

Oh, before I go, I'm going to delete a couple of your red karma. A gift from me to you!

Thx

Oh, before I go, I'm going to delete a couple of your red karma. A gift from me to you!

Oh i dont waste it.

Im deleting my account.

I cleaned it the karma up for you!

Don't delete! Thats emotional. Don't be emotional. YOU control the emotions, do not let them control you.

Callin my isp to block this stuff

Poor me... someone was mean to me and left me because I was a selfrigheous asshole who thinks of nothing but myself. I might play a song on the worlds smallest violin.