I'm done.

I fall flat on my face before God and mankind,

I am nothing. I am a worm and no man.

I am an egotistical, sociopathic, attention seeking (isnt that what this post is?) mentally challenged deviant.

I alienate myself from those who love me the most and who wanted to help me but who gave up long ago to protect themselves and to show 'tough love' because of my refusal to change.

I am depraved and my heart is fixed on wicked things continually.

I have denied God to all of His names and faces. I have spit on the cross of Jesus Christ. I have blasphemed His Holy Spirit. I have desecrated His redeeming grace.

Now, like Cain, he won't let me die. I am cursed to walk this earth branded with His mark. Truly the world does not harm me at all but I harm myself continually with my foolish choices and by digging myself deeper and deeper into a pit of despair.

I am a vessel of DISHONOR and I long for my appointed time when my maker utterly demolishes me and sends me back to the furthest reaches of hell where I came from and where I belong.

You righteous ones, you fervent and devoted ones, you Men and Women of God, pray for me to the Lord Your God that He show me Mercy, pray that I find my way back to Him if its not too late.

Pray that I might Hear from Him and have the Wisdom to DO what He asks me to do.