Hello TivmmCpoft: I think I overlooked your number 1 below - sorry. By choosing number 1, you have chosen the quality CLARITY, which you are invited to increase in your life. Here are some questions which can start the clarification process:

Given that it is possible to view any situation from a different perspective, who have you ‘wrongly‘ accused? Have you ‘wrongly‘ accused yourself? What is not yet clear?
Have you understood that you must be clear about your starting point if you are to progress in any direction?
How are you torturing yourself? What obstacles have restricted your freedom to show you that you have freedom to act? What prevents you from defining your wishes more precisely?
How seriously do you view meditation as a means of clarification?
Do you take time daily to contemplate your purpose and how you can improve the next day?
What if you always followed your intuition?
Which small daily pleasures can you be thankful for? How often do you create an oasis of calm?
Supposing everyone in the world focussed less on their physical surroundings and more on their relationships to their fellow human beings?