Hello dear Wildflower; being frustrated and high strung often has to do with expectations of others, or of oneself, which don't quite pan out ... this is what spontaneously comes to mind. You have chosen 45. The quality you have chosen is HUMILITY. The following questions may be able to help you get some more insight into your situation, or suggest possibilities:

What trauma has occurred, enabling you to give birth to something new?
How much weight do you give material possessions in your life?
Who deserves more of your respect?
Which situation is inviting you to show the quality of humility?
Is it possible that losing something is a way of finding your lost self?
In what way have you cut yourself off from your instincts?
How quickly do ‘second thoughts’ interrupt your flow of intuitive action and encourage ‘separateness’ from others?
What if everyone believed the more we give, the more we receive?
If everyone were as special as everyone else, how would we treat each other and what would stop us from starting a golden age of peace on earth?