Hello GhosthunterMaria (amazing name!), though perhaps JOB HUNTER MARIA, or even better FOUNDJOB MARIA might put out a more positive vibe to the universe, which does as you ask it ...
You chose number three. You are advised to increase the quality of SELF-EXPRESSION, which will lead to all sorts of wondrous developments! Here are some questions for you:
Are you aware of how special you are?
Do you regard other people as special?
Is there anyone you are ignoring or not fully acknowledging?
In what way could your behaviour be judged as confusing?
Which feelings have you not fully expressed?
What fear lies behind the dreadful feeling you get if you ask for help?
Supposing you voice your emotions the moment you feel them?
What makes you feel ‘wrong’? Are you? What if the ‘divine’ or ‘god’ never punishes?
What if ‘punishment’ is a result of negative individual and collective energy?
How often does your judgment of what is ‘good’ or ‘bad’ determine your behaviour?
Suppose it is impossible to make mistakes?
What would you do next if everything was ‘allowed’?
How would the world change if our decisions were not based on what we personally consider ‘good’ or ‘bad’, but on what ‘works’ for us and what ‘works’ for the world?
I am having trouble with getting and keeping a job that would help me in supporting my family. The number that popped into my head is 3. Quoting: Ghosthuntermaria