Hello dear Vet: sorry to hear about the issues you are having, and I hope things will soon improve. you have chosen number 7. The quality you are invited to increase is MINDFULNESS, and the questions below may help to start you on this path. Regarding finding a wife, it is good to know/find oneself first, in the sense that you could write up a list of what qualities a wife of your choice would have. Then take that list and BE those qualities yourself. In this way, you will attract what you want.

What acute problem it is time to discuss now?
How much responsibility do you take on for the people surrounding you?
If you are continuously giving, what is it that you continuously expect?
How much responsibility do you take on for yourself?
What avenues are always open to you for recovering your vitality?
Do you consciously invite moments of silence or periods of rest into your life?
How could you welcome each day as if it offers infinite new opportunities?
Are you stubborn or unwilling because you think you have no choice?
How can a change in your consciousness turn unpleasant or unchangeable situations into a new experience?
Are you mindful of every moment?
What if everyone in the world were continually aware of all the choices available to them?