Hello AC from Italy: you have chosen SELF EXPRESSION! Here are some questions to ponder:

Are you aware of how special you are?
Do you regard other people as special?
Is there anyone you are ignoring or not fully acknowledging?
In what way could your behaviour be judged as confusing?
Which feelings have you not fully expressed?
What fear lies behind the dreadful feeling you get if you ask for help?
Supposing you voice your emotions the moment you feel them?
What makes you feel ‘wrong’? Are you? What if the ‘divine’ or ‘god’ never punishes?
What if ‘punishment’ is a result of negative individual and collective energy?
How often does your judgment of what is ‘good’ or ‘bad’ determine your behaviour?
Suppose it is impossible to make mistakes?
What would you do next if everything was ‘allowed’?
How would the world change if our decisions were not based on what we personally consider ‘good’ or ‘bad’, but on what ‘works’ for us and what ‘works’ for the world?