2 months clean and sober, no meat for a month, no fapping.

Hey everybody, I've got a dilemma here. I'm doing so much better now I'm off the drugs and alcohol, I mean it is nothing short of awesome!

I've made some drastic changes in my life. No more drugs of any recreatiobal kind, no more meat in my diet, minimal fapping (1-3 times a month).

My concern is this... I'm having delusional thinking. I have the delusion that I am God. It's an invasive thought that I've struggled with for some time, only now it's a relapse of that entire thought pattern or deity association issues.

I've experienced many strange phenomena.

I have been hearing someone at my front door, and every time I open it to see who it is, nobody is there. It's like a ghost or an angel. My door knob was literally moving up and down, which startled me. I opened the door, nobody was there. This has been happening a lot recently, where strange phenomena occur leaving me speechless.

I don't like the belief that I'm the Almighty. It's almost like the letters to the 7 churches where one person receives a name that nobody else on the planet knows.

He sits on the throne of God, rules the nations with an iron rod, receives God's name and Jesus' new name, and is given the bright morning star.

I'm worn out from it all honestly. I can digest my delusions a tad easier since I'm clean and sober, but strange stuff keeps me in the deistic mindset.

I don't khow if any of you can relate, I'd be really interested in positive feedback from you guys.