You're probably in the wilderness as many are. Its that scripture, hard for rich man to enter the kingdom, etc. Our things become idols easily. It can seem very harsh. I know. Just tell God he can have all of you. He wants to be first. I think its about over. Something ugly is coming to the world, but good for us who have been separated. The most important thing is for us to repent of every thought, word and deed that doesn't line up with the word of God. We'll be glad we went that way, soon. Some say war is coming before our deliverance. Whatever it is, hold tight.