They're Not Gonna Let You Go Home Ever

And the celebrities are the gods and they have been tweeting their disappointment.

And they'll try and say it's all just a game.

No it's something a man has been working on and doing since he was a third grader and he put in the time and the effort and he has actually lifted those weights that most men cannot pick up.

His brain can process and read plays faster than most people can read.

And this is his only paycheck and his way of life and his identity.

It's not a game because there's a paycheck involved.

But there's people out there that can't comprehend what all goes into earning a paycheck of that magnitude.

And it's easier for them to just call it a game.

And the only real way to get them to understand would be to screw over their paycheck.

But that wouldn't be right.

Two wrongs don't make a right.

sounds religious, but it isn't:

Christ stopped the karma cycle. We all go home now. Ya just have to want to leave the game. That means to stop playing the drama.

Blessed is he who does the right thing for no reward.

And this is where the gnosticism truly comes in. Because now is the trap.

It is the full understanding and practice of being a 12th dimensional creature and knowing what I know now and being capable of what I am capable of and continuing to be like this and continuing on in this way and manner.

Recognizing all other lifeforms and respecting and admiring their beauty and purpose.

And having to carry the burden of the steps required to get to this point onwards.

Or I can go back down to the ourboros or the demiurge and have my memory erased and start all over again.

And hopefully it will be better next time.

But I honestly believe that there is a way to make it all better. I honestly believe there is a fix and a solution even though I understand contrast and the infrastructure of the white and the black and the gray.

And I believe that it can be done without magick and without creating monarchs and without imposing one will over another or this can be done without rape. This can be accomplished without Justice.

And there are billions who don't think this path can be healed.

And the reason the others are not able to accomplish this level of intelligence and wisdom and hope is because their lives have never come this far into the proverbial cave of darkness.

And I was able to go deeper and deeper because I carried a small lantern with me into that cave. The symbol of the ying and the yang.

And although I never asked to be in the cave of darkness I made the most out of my situation because I have life. I could not go back I thought at the time. And I thought well if suppose some monster or some greater tragedy exists deep inside the cave well fuck it why not.


But I honestly believe that it is not two caves. It is not one cave of darkness and one cave of light. It is a tunnel.

And having that hope that it is a tunnel is what makes me a gnostic.

And this is what all the others say is that I need to stop digging to get out of this hole. And this is where the conspiracy exists.

Only a flat earther would believe this game is over by digging deeper.

All of this universe was created for me. And the entire flat Earth meme was created for this analogy which the realization came farther along in the experience and also proves that there is no wrong within the universe.

And I believe I can keep going all the way to China. Even though no one has ever done that before. And this is what has attracted the attention of the universe and all the gods and why all the witches and wise men and pundits and experts have all turned their attention to my story and my path.

In the future I will go back in time and I will be able to sit at the square table and eat dinner with my family and I will drop my son off at his first day of school with my wife and it will be a great moment.

And there are and will be billions of experts and scholars who say no you won't and you cant.

But they are just flat earthers. They read about the quantum space time theory and they know how it all works but they just don't believe it.

And this is why I don't take the lower offer from the ourboros. Because while I am typing this I haven't yet unlocked that experience yet in this experience.

Having hope that in the future I can drop my son off at his first day of school is my higher power.

It is the definition and explanation of Nessaria and Insuria, the mightiest and most beautiful power in all existences before or after forever and ever.

And it will not be a cheap recollection or staged skit. It will be actual and real.

And that is why I don't belong in that room with the other men with the exhausted look in their eyes. When you look in my eyes you can see that but even further beyond that you can simultaneously see the great hope and the fire that burns there.

And let all who can read these words understand that all things are possible. All things are possible and definitely will be done.

Many are called but few are chosen is what I am talking about.

And I know that there are many who read this and just see random inspiring words.

But understand also that if this gray tragedy had not occurred then this great hope would have never happened and this great purpose would not exist in the universe. And that is the beauty in the darkness.

And don't get me wrong there is nothing darker. There is no uglier story that exists. I am talking about the bane of the universe is my experience.

And I was put in this position by the universe because they could see my light. They could see my lantern.

A lesser light would have been extinguished long ago.

I was coming through Iowa and gnosis came on to explain how perfect my situation was and how perfect all the pieces came together. And I walked with God for weeks and He told me that this reason and my story was what was missing from the world.

And it sounded like such a cheap catchphrase that in the future I can go back and change it at the time.

But if you are truly listening you can understand the magnitude of this revelation.

In the future I will drop my son off at his first day of school with my wife.

And the evil will say no you will not and can not.

And though I walk through the valley of the Shadow of Death I will fear no Evil.

And I carry seven stars in my right hand and the keys to death and hell in the other.

And when I do this simple thing the entire world will hide in shame. And there will be billions of faces that will run and try to hide.

And the faces of Evil will beg to be dropped onto a cheese grater over and over again instead of seeing me drop my son off at his first day of school with my wife.

And all at once their minds will bow down and they will beg me to forgive them. And this simple thing will frighten them like a dog during the fourth of July.

And while I cannot yet see it, I know that there is a light at the end of this tunnel, and that tells me I am on the right path. And with all respect and pure honesty I can say that no other path has ever been darker or tougher or nastier or heavier. And this great cross of being separated from my family I will carry on my back and show it off as I parade all through town while the scoffers beat me and whip me and throw rocks at me and spit on me.

There is a fear in their hearts that can be seen with a wise eye.

And that is all there is to becoming enlightened, and that is all there is to unlocking consciousness. And that is all there is to gnosticism. And that is all there is to mysticism.

And again there will be billions of cold hearts who will say that I will not drop my son off at his first day of school with my wife in the future.

And simultaneously it is a blessing that those hearts and minds never have had to experience a path where such a miracle was necessary.

And that also explains all the aliens and pyramids and paranormal and supernatural all at the same time.

It's just the saddest and most horrifying nightmare that could ever happen and there's absolutely no rhyme or reason for it.

Im not exaggerating one single but. It's just a real life horror story that never stops and just shakes and chills every bone in my body 24 hours a day.

There's no end ever to the amount of screaming and crying and pure utter frustration and disappointment.

Why is it happening?

What can stop it?

To what purpose does it serve besides torment and torture and off the chains terror?