I started Hospice at home, prayers and emotional support appreciated. UPDATE: Our Beloved Monkey Flower Has Passed - 7 April 2020 - ljs

My heart aches for her Kountess Kitty, too, who never left her side.

Now I get it.


I am not sure why I didn't get it before, I used to have many friends on GLP, then I left for a few years. Since I started coming back again, rather than find the community again, I allowed a few represent the many and fulfilled my lowest expectations of the world, and the community.


What a gift she gave to all of you, what a gift you gave to her. I am about to cry again. Without even realizing it you have all given me a gift.

I often wondered over the last few months about the unfortunate timing of her post. How anyone would even read it with so much happening ...I was looking for hope, strength, guidance something to remind me why I cared even about humanity. Little did I know in my cynical, jaded brain that here, hidden in this little thread...was the hope, acceptance, strength, love, and wisdom I have been searching for and never finding. The guidance. A gift. She wasn't looking for attention and all of the things I assumed... she was giving us a gift by simply sharing herself and her thoughts. I am sure most of you know this already... I just realized today, please excuse my intrusion, and please accept it.

I am sorry to see that this beautiful human passed, but what a gift she left us.

I am inspired, moved, and changed by what I read here this morning.

How could I forget that people don't always post threads for attention, pity, trickery...

For all of the mean spirited, negative energy that I find on GLP ...this beautiful human who I never met, and never spoke to chose to share this intimate time in her life with her friends on GLP... with strangers as well. I am sure I am not the only person who waited until now to finally read this thread. I did not remember that although there are so many trolls and mean people out there, there are beautiful people.. I can't recall a time I felt such energy in a thread.

Sending love and thoughts toward her beautiful family who also brought tears to my eyes as I pictured their kind gestures of love and appreciation. That says so much about Monkey Flower in itself.

This small thread, on a smallish forum, renewed my soul. Thank you all for being you.

How wrong I was to be afraid to see the trolls here, mean comments, and whatever else I thought was actually going on in here. Not only was I wrong, I couldn't have been MORE wrong.

My heart is filled...I am not sure how to feel about this emotion I am experiencing. Whatever I thought I knew about the world, about GLP... I am reminded again who I am and how beautiful humanity can be.

I already pm'ed a few people on here, but will post here as well.

I talked to Gayle's husband yesterday. He called me. Logically it is a very difficult time. He has shut down her phone and will discontinue that subscription. But he did thank everyone for being so extremely kind and loving. That has helped him so very much as well. He said that as soon as things have calmed down, he will find a way to thank everyone on the board himself.

He gave me his number and told me I can call him anytime. I will try and text him in his morning (we are six hours apart) to ask carefully if it would be okay to call for a minute and also give him my email address in that message to get information on the service. I certainly do not want to invade their privacy in this terrible time for them.

I know that she will be cremated. It is weird in a sense that we just talked about that in our last phone talk, after I sent her a picture of a weeping willow I took on my Sunday bike ride. She mentioned that when she was younger, she often took her children to Belle Isle in Michigan, with the weeping willows and the large white house. That is where she wants her ashes to be spread.

I have searched online but so far her obituary has not been registered. Obviously in this crisis, these services are also messed up.

As soon as I know, I will inform those that have asked me about it and put a message on the thread that people can pm me or others for details. I don't know if it is wise or even allowed to put the private details of the service on the board. If there are other friends who maybe have another way of getting this information, feel free to message me as well.

Stay safe out there everyone. You are loved!