STICK ME WITH THE FORK I'M DONE.too old to tired to fight anymore

They replaced the "Boo..er" word with this statement, that is how sick this forum is. lol

I hope things turn around for you.

God isn't real.

It's the original government hoax to control people.

You should have been making better choices.

I don't get it, I have worked my ass off all my life. I have been thankful. I have appreciated everything in my life that came my way, and I always thought there was a God. I don't know anymore. I actually appreciated the hard times because I knew it would make me grow. I'm tired of growing. I'm tired of fighting. I'm trying to relax, but I can't be at peace. I just want to coast for a while, knowing my bills will be paid and we will have food, and the grandkids can come over and we can go out to dinner and enjoy each other's company. But I can't even afford that. Because after this month, were going to have to get in the government housing or something.

I really don't know anymore.

I don't believe in religion, but I know that there's some kind of a higher source and I think that it just likes to let us think that it cares about us. I think it's just a way for us to keep plugging on and putting out energy to be devoured by it. It gives us enough just to think that it's good, just enough to think that it's there to help and support us. It gives us just enough, and then it takes it all away!

I've gone one step forward 2 steps backwards most of my life. No matter what career or profession I was in I was always just getting by, never could afford to buy a house. Never.

I've had a couple different partners in my life and always ended up supporting them somehow one way or another, and even though that changed about 12 years ago now I'm back to square one. Yep. Supporting him. Oh woe is me, what the hell. Where is my retirement? Where is my partner to help me when I needed? Nowhere. Where is God to help me when I needed? Nowhere.


.I've talked to God till Im blue in the face. I have expressed gratitude. I have expressed anxiety and consternation. I have expressed intentions to carry through on some of my most heartfelt ideas and plans only to have them crash and burn in front of my face.


Nobody has to respond to this stupid thread. In fact, I really don't care. Once I post this am going away anyway. I might come back in a day or 2 to see if anybody cared to even read it. But right now I need to go find a quiet spot, but myself. I'm so tempted to just leave this world. I really am. The only thing keeping here is the love of my family. But what is love when you're living like a pauper, you have nowhere to go, I am old to try and survive anymore?


I used to think positive, felt truly appreciative and happy.

No I don't have a chemical imbalance. No I am not depressed, at least not medically in the sense that somebody would want to put me on meds. I don't want them. I'm depressed because there is no God. I'm depressed because no matter how much effort I put into my endeavors, I am going backwards.


I just needed a place to vent. It doesn't matter whether its this forum or God, I'm going to get the same kind of response. It's all the same.

Honestly, OP, have you not listened to the voices of this forum? They blame you for your situation. JUST LOOK AT THE COMMENTS IN THIS THREAD BY PEOPLE LIKE BRIEF. Its all your fault, guess you should have worked harder. Guess you're not as smart and worthy as these billionaires, by GLP logic.

Thread: In the last 13 years, billionaires have quadrupled their wealth... twice

HEAVEN HELP ALL YOU GREEDY People far more intelligent than millennialsS.

They replaced the "Boo..er" word with this statement, that is how sick this forum is. lol

OP: They say "curiosity killed the cat." I say lack of curiosity kills humans. Find a subject your passionate about & study it forwards & backwards. Master it in all it's parts & leave no stone unturned. Once done, move on to another subject. Keep busy! The devil finds work for idle hands.

Perhaps the 1st subject worth tackling is searching for proof of God. If you study every religion on Earth & dig into the esoteric side of things, you'll get the proof you're looking for. I certainly did.

So many deluded Bible thumpers this is hilarious. Ppl like them will never solve problems in this corrupt world. Your views are too complacent. Ever heard of “the only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.”? Prayers are just that: nothing. If you had suffered like the OP and I did, you will not be worshipping a made up God.

I don't get it, I have worked my ass off all my life. I have been thankful. I have appreciated everything in my life that came my way, and I always thought there was a God. I don't know anymore. I actually appreciated the hard times because I knew it would make me grow. I'm tired of growing. I'm tired of fighting. I'm trying to relax, but I can't be at peace. I just want to coast for a while, knowing my bills will be paid and we will have food, and the grandkids can come over and we can go out to dinner and enjoy each other's company. But I can't even afford that. Because after this month, were going to have to get in the government housing or something.

I really don't know anymore.

I don't believe in religion, but I know that there's some kind of a higher source and I think that it just likes to let us think that it cares about us. I think it's just a way for us to keep plugging on and putting out energy to be devoured by it. It gives us enough just to think that it's good, just enough to think that it's there to help and support us. It gives us just enough, and then it takes it all away!

I've gone one step forward 2 steps backwards most of my life. No matter what career or profession I was in I was always just getting by, never could afford to buy a house. Never.

I've had a couple different partners in my life and always ended up supporting them somehow one way or another, and even though that changed about 12 years ago now I'm back to square one. Yep. Supporting him. Oh woe is me, what the hell. Where is my retirement? Where is my partner to help me when I needed? Nowhere. Where is God to help me when I needed? Nowhere.


.I've talked to God till Im blue in the face. I have expressed gratitude. I have expressed anxiety and consternation. I have expressed intentions to carry through on some of my most heartfelt ideas and plans only to have them crash and burn in front of my face.


Nobody has to respond to this stupid thread. In fact, I really don't care. Once I post this am going away anyway. I might come back in a day or 2 to see if anybody cared to even read it. But right now I need to go find a quiet spot, but myself. I'm so tempted to just leave this world. I really am. The only thing keeping here is the love of my family. But what is love when you're living like a pauper, you have nowhere to go, I am old to try and survive anymore?


I used to think positive, felt truly appreciative and happy.

No I don't have a chemical imbalance. No I am not depressed, at least not medically in the sense that somebody would want to put me on meds. I don't want them. I'm depressed because there is no God. I'm depressed because no matter how much effort I put into my endeavors, I am going backwards.


I just needed a place to vent. It doesn't matter whether its this forum or God, I'm going to get the same kind of response. It's all the same.

OP: They say "curiosity killed the cat." I say lack of curiosity kills humans. Find a subject your passionate about & study it forwards & backwards. Master it in all it's parts & leave no stone unturned. Once done, move on to another subject. Keep busy! The devil finds work for idle hands.

Perhaps the 1st subject worth tackling is searching for proof of God. If you study every religion on Earth & dig into the esoteric side of things, you'll get the proof you're looking for. I certainly did.

There is a higher power, one we can’t think of comprehending. You should know this.

I don't get it, I have worked my ass off all my life. I have been thankful. I have appreciated everything in my life that came my way, and I always thought there was a God. I don't know anymore. I actually appreciated the hard times because I knew it would make me grow. I'm tired of growing. I'm tired of fighting. I'm trying to relax, but I can't be at peace. I just want to coast for a while, knowing my bills will be paid and we will have food, and the grandkids can come over and we can go out to dinner and enjoy each other's company. But I can't even afford that. Because after this month, were going to have to get in the government housing or something.

I really don't know anymore.

I don't believe in religion, but I know that there's some kind of a higher source and I think that it just likes to let us think that it cares about us. I think it's just a way for us to keep plugging on and putting out energy to be devoured by it. It gives us enough just to think that it's good, just enough to think that it's there to help and support us. It gives us just enough, and then it takes it all away!

I've gone one step forward 2 steps backwards most of my life. No matter what career or profession I was in I was always just getting by, never could afford to buy a house. Never.

I've had a couple different partners in my life and always ended up supporting them somehow one way or another, and even though that changed about 12 years ago now I'm back to square one. Yep. Supporting him. Oh woe is me, what the hell. Where is my retirement? Where is my partner to help me when I needed? Nowhere. Where is God to help me when I needed? Nowhere.


.I've talked to God till Im blue in the face. I have expressed gratitude. I have expressed anxiety and consternation. I have expressed intentions to carry through on some of my most heartfelt ideas and plans only to have them crash and burn in front of my face.


Nobody has to respond to this stupid thread. In fact, I really don't care. Once I post this am going away anyway. I might come back in a day or 2 to see if anybody cared to even read it. But right now I need to go find a quiet spot, but myself. I'm so tempted to just leave this world. I really am. The only thing keeping here is the love of my family. But what is love when you're living like a pauper, you have nowhere to go, I am old to try and survive anymore?


I used to think positive, felt truly appreciative and happy.

No I don't have a chemical imbalance. No I am not depressed, at least not medically in the sense that somebody would want to put me on meds. I don't want them. I'm depressed because there is no God. I'm depressed because no matter how much effort I put into my endeavors, I am going backwards.


I just needed a place to vent. It doesn't matter whether its this forum or God, I'm going to get the same kind of response. It's all the same.

I believe in a Creator, not God. The two are very different. Christianity is a form of control.

This is the beginning of you truly waking up, OP. It only gets worse as you become more aware.