Notes from an 'Alternate Universe': The Return of the Blue Kachina

The future is yours to write, but for myself it was enough to sell everything and move from North America and look for a home elsewhere.

Some stories as easier to write when you've all ready settled on the backdrop.

What might be 'crazy' to me now would have been, perhaps, normal had I stayed where I was.

Boiling frog.. you know.


Remember that what you perceive comes directly from you. You know it, but it's good to remember.

I would say it is just the way we exist. We need to ignore nearly everything so that we may. But perhaps the rest is just contained in what we aren't ignoring.

Seek out being wrong sometimes, and see the other side of you. Embrace your evil to see that neither good nor bad are actually there. Things just are, ready for your ever-changing interpretation.

Thanks for allowing me to witness the limits the i has placed on Self

Those limits are a requirement to a fruitful and prosperous existence (and life).

However, the agents of chaos will direct you towards trying to make yourself unlimited. This is done through all manner of books and materials, and has especially been worked up over the past 40 years or so. Even my own material can be seen in such a way.

It keeps you from actual focus and intensity of effort.

Existence is Nothing without focus.

However, it is also what most of us want. Most of us want the idea of something but not the actual thing. We want to dream of ourselves as being god-like but without the years or even decades it may take to get there.

In a way, the agents of chaos are doing us a favour by giving us access to the 'gateway drug' so that we have more of an opportunity to figure this out.

But very few of us do.

Focus. That’s what’s missing.

Doesn’t really feel like it.
Though it does feel like I am even more of a loner these days.

You have a lot to say. I notice you keep speaking for others. Is this an attempt to seek external agreement to compensate for the lack of internal agreement?

For me it's the sheer amount of responsibility that goes along with the act of creating. I think it would require an enormous amount of wisdom and common sense.

Is it the dream world bringing crazy/strange things here with the merger.

Or is it the strange/disinformation of the waking world keeping one from noticing the dream world interactions.

I havent been working much on clearing the chaos fog through dietary awareness, I am still hanging in.
It has been lingering in the back of my mind the minor things I could ascend to.
I find it strange that people turn to 'drugs' to attempt to connect with the source or something greater than themselves when really a clean temple could be key.

As of late I have been thinking I am from the source and appreciate the other me's taking one for the team, as I dont judge their interactions as it could very well be me in a different circumstance.
And if all possibilities exist how can I be more 'in control' or understanding of this temporary and unstable existence?
I understand it on a very minor scale as interacting with representations of things that will bring the desired outcome but I am not a majik majnet to all that I want.
Just wondering if you can give me something further to think about as this stuff has been in my mind.


Men are mortal gods. Just a mortal looking to remember of my immortal self across the eternal unseen.

Does it suck as much as this shithole reality?

How do you mean the AOC are trying to make us unlimited? In what sense?

Your material has helped me see my self imposed boundaries and definitions. How I generate my reality. It has allowed me to dream big. To let go in certain ways and hold tight in others. It’s been quite the journey! Thanks for the invitation.

Are you now focusing on something else instead of your music?

Is it what you want?

No. It's a compensation for my small member and lack of love growing up. Boo hoo! I need your shoulder to cry on.

Why would you need wisdom and common sense?

I think it is seeing more of how reality is formed.

Physical reality is 'breaking apart' so to speak. It is becoming the dream world, whether or not we realize that we are in control.

But at the time that it happens, the crazy is 'normal'. Many of the things that are going on today would have been unthinkable 50 years ago, but they make sense in today's reality.

Just wait until they taste the PX ..

The agents of chaos have been pushing drugs of all kinds as a means to 'return to the source'. It's just more disinformation, and people seem to love to be disinformed if it makes sense (no matter how inaccurate).


All possibilities don't exist. There's no need for them to.

The most permanent and stable thing is the 'temporary and unstable' thing of which you speak.


Get rid of your desires. Turn it, instead, into things that are missing in your perspective.

That's the nature of the Genius. It's about indirect retrieval of the things you want, with your perspective filling the void. In that way, you wouldn't care so much about the specifics of what you want but the general direction.

An example of this would be looking for a part to a car you do not (yet) have. Your perspective could then 'fill in the blanks' with the car in order to complete the logical narrative.

It's not magic, just the nature of how we perceive.

If you have specific questions, please let me know :)

Without the agents of chaos hard at work, it would truly be a shithole. (Or so we would probably think.)

<<However, the agents of chaos will direct you towards trying to make yourself unlimited.>>

Not trying to make us unlimited, but trying to get you to want to be unlimited in various aspects.

"Push this button to get unlimited freedom", for example.

"Do this in order to get everyone to love you."

Personal growth, in particular, in the vein of Oprah or Dr. Phil, for example.

The internet gives you unlimited knowledge at your fingertips.

Prayer gives you unlimited access to a supreme being.

That's the nature of Chaos. It doesn't want you to FOCUS.


You're very welcome. Don't forget to focus on a general direction, as I'm sure you've been doing. (Or, focus on something in particular but be willing to let it go in an instant.)

Yes, work takes up most of my time. In the weekends I learn to paint. And after work it is mostly zoning out browsing internet. Not watching cable tv or news.

Do I like to be alone? Sometimes. There aren’t many ppl I like to be around. And I definitely don’t like crowds.

I’m reminded of Chaol’s quote:

Very timely thread op. Very.

You speak truth I can feel it.

Lately I’ve been in a muck, unfocused drained and focused on doom.

I used to be an acid meditator. Haven’t been for a year now.

Finally tonight to shake off all this stuff going on I mediated.

The words

The devil is chaos came up. God is order.

But then I realized Both are needed and smiled at what is happening here...

Also the words “your life is where you shine your light (consciousness) appeared... I’ve intellectually known this but now I know this know this

I’ve always fallen into cycles of:

Want something, pursue, get or don’t get doesn’t matter I get bored or lose interest and focus

Right now I don’t really want anything I just want to BE myself. Any tips on living this? Leap of faith ?

Also i realized “order through chaos” is the chaos beings motto and that is the world they are trying to bring fourth... and chaos through order is another way of living (free spirit types) realistically I think in the middle is the proper approach

Order what you can and let the rest come

Great thread and great timing, I can feel my funk fading

Avid not acid meditator !!!

Have you ever tried going without electronic media for a few days/weeks?

I like that piece of information a lot! I will see what I can discover!

I should take your example of car-part as a coincidence but I find that hard to believe.

Ok I went back on my history to check the dates, I interacted with the star-trek movies as it lead me to a new project which didnt appear on my radar till after watching. It appears the final frontier ship made it to me. The most logical one in need of maintenance and body armor. Literally Frontier crept into my personal space as I picked up a D22. To explore strange new worlds. To seek out new life and new civilizations. To boldly go where no man has gone before! Gosh if only I would have watched Blank Check.

Thank you for sharing that.

Focusing on the detail (what we think we are, what we have built, have said, etc) is OK, but focusing on the general direction can allow us to see the relationships between them, allowing us to remember what is all ready there.

For those who remember their dreams perhaps sometimes when you try to change them (while dreaming), nothing happens. But when you, instead, focus on the feeling of what you want, then it happens eventually. Does anyone have this experience?

Last Edited by The Builder on 03/06/2020 01:45 AM