A useless ability to understand the bigger worldview...

So... as a kid... you understand yourself... you feel yourself.

And you feel people who care for you... or harm you. That creates your world-view...

There can be more than that, but its a good place to start. I mean there is appreciation of "absolute truths", but even those are like... all IN TERMS of your own feelings and stuff.

Thats fine.

Then you become older and people tell you to "grow up", and STOP SEeing THINGS YOUR WAY.

"Well if you saw it my way, you'd realise why it's OK for me to beat you up and insult you all the time and boss you around and actually I'm just trying to do the best for you".

And it MAKES NO SENSE. Because it just doesn't. It ruins everything.

They are evil insane stupid spoilt liars... who are incompetant abusive adults but who have everything their way because they would die if they didn't have a government to tell them what to do.

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Over time you learn how to fight back against humanity and heal things and fix things. A million endeavors... too grand to even dare to open that story.

But through those adventures you learn about humans... their ways... how they are so different and fucking stupid, yet manage to have EVERYTHING their way and just keep on going on and surviving despite that they shouldn't. How they just relax and feel comfortable in ignorance... of all the damage they've done.

It becomes "Their story". A story in which they have "their perspective" and really all the damage they did... is something they "can't understand" and "don't need to know about".

So overtime... you learn to understand their "perspective".

here's the problem...

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IT MAKES NO SENSE!!!

THERE ARE NO PERSPECTIVES` THAT LET PEOPLE JUST NOT CARE OR FEEL ALL THE DAMAGE THEY'VE DONE!!!

JUST NONE!

They are PRETENDING it's their "perspective".

If I look at a toaster, it is a toaster. I don't rotate it around until it suddenly looks like a dragon and I have the right to explode it. its the same thing, no matter what direction.

I don't know of any physical objects in which someone can "just look at it from a different direction and then have the right to spend 40+ years trying to destroy it because it looked bad".

Its a lie. its nothing to do with "perspective". its a fake. A LIE.

Their PERSPECTIVES ARE ALL FAKE. ALL LIES.

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Everything I've learnt of human perspectives is just draining and damaging me.

But there is literally nothing I can do to defeat it.

Because they just play ignorant.

"Oh you got upset about me cutting part of your body off? Well from MY perspective, thats a good thing!! So you need to understand it from MY perspective, not your own!!"

So I can just go around cutting parts of everyone else's body off and that's fine too? Oh wait yeah... I'd go to jail. But they are FREE.

Theres no way to just GET THEM TO ADMIT THEIR THAT PERSPECTIVES ARE FAKE.

Because all they do is ARGUE AND LIE. And it just can't be defeated.

I hate it.

I wish... they were all dead. useless liars. With fake perspectives.