First of all, your spelling is atrocious, I could barely get through that. But yeah I know exactly what you mean. You using your thumb and finger to activate your ability is secondary. It doesn't matter. I've experienced speeding up and slowing down but the hardest to comprehend is size. I've seen things close up like I was falling into them as they magnified in my head.

But a few times I've expanded too. That's incomprehensible. My mind was the size of the universe. I don't think words do it j6stice. If you ever slow things down and expand your mind across the entire universe you would understand. You seem to have stopped growing your abilities early on. Imagine if you had progressed to where I am. You can't.