Hang in there OP. It is an ugly world out there right now, but know that there are still a few loving, and caring, people in this world that want to help. Sometimes it seems pointless to continue on with this "life sentence." But just keep trudging your way through and try to find the peace and happiness that can be found out there. Look to animals for unconditional love, and try donation to other or some type of "service to others" that will help you feel better. Above all, just give one damn cent about what others think of you. I wish for you better days ahead.